The Adventures of Nerd Girl

It's been a long time...

2012-01-31T13:52:00.000-08:00

So now that they craziness of the holidays has subsided and my sanity is slowly returning I figured I would pop in and give you all a glimpse of what I've been up to. The last time I wrote I had just finished up a shoot for Kink.com. they are a phenomenal company to work for and I can't wait until the next time they call. that does however feel like ages ago. I have been up to so many things since then.

I have been modeling regularly for a photographer in Chicago and have new photos every time I go to share with every one. Some of my best are on my thread on Adultdvdtalk.com. It's a great place to chat. Lately we have been reminiscing about great Romantic Comedies. It's great. But I digress. I am also planning a trip to Florida for the end of February to shoot some footage with NaughtyAlysha.com. I am very excited to go somewhere that is above freezing when the weather lately has been about 20 degrees everyday.

I have also been selling all sorts of geeky art lately inspired by Doctor Who. I love Doctor Who so Why not wear a miniature adipose around my neck. I have gotten really caught up in British television altogether. Being Human, Spaced, Kingdom, Luther and Sherlock are among my Favorite. And Downton Abbey is just to die for. Why can't American shows be this great.

My latest project though has been repainting a friends collection of lawn gnomes. I know there are obviously people out there that think that lawn gnomes are the greatest thing since sliced bread but I swear there is nothing harder to paint then the underside of a gnomes beard. I am also strongly fighting the temptation to turn one of the gnomes into a zombies gnome 'by accident'. I think my friend would freak out and as great as that would be I don't think I want to make her mad. She once mentioned something about a whip and a kennel...

So that is what I have been up to. It seems like so little when I can sum it up in 3 paragraphs but it has been a lot. So Kisses to you all and have a wonderful night

Fucked by 9 men and a hot girl

2011-09-08T08:54:00.000-07:00

So, maybe you don't know it, but occasionally I look myself up on Freeones.com and see what's out there. Then, yesterday, my shoot with Kaylee Hilton from BoundGangBangs.com came out, and I went over to Freeones to see if they had anything yet. Well, not yet, but my rank jumped by like 2000 places :) In the meantime, here's some preview pics of me and Kaylee getting our brains fucked out. Ironically, we make fun of some nerds and they blackmail us into fucking all nine of them! Holy shit, my cunt is dripping thinking about it :) Take a gander, and let me know what parts you liked jerking off to the best! I'm going to go fuck myself silly with a werewolf dildo while I watch it again.

xoxo
Clayra Beau

New Jewelry.

2011-06-23T23:13:00.000-07:00

So today has been an interesting day. I decided today to go out and get my clit hood pierced. I figure my pussy needs a bit of jewelry since it is getting so many pictures taken of it. :)

It was a pretty easy procedure. The worst part honestly was the clamp they had to put on my clit hood. the piercing only hurt for a minute and then I really couldn't feel it after that. It looks pretty nice and I can't wait for it to heal so I can get a really pretty one.

So enjoy and feel free to share your opinion.

Clayra

PICS!

2011-06-07T20:26:00.000-07:00

Not much to say, so I'll let these speak for themselves. Click each to see a larger image :)

Painting, Porn, and Portal 2

2011-06-04T10:00:00.000-07:00

"Black Bird" (photo by Terry Mac)

So, the last we spoke, I retired. The work wasn't coming in (never does in the the beginning of the year, really), I needed a break after my awful experience with Facial Abuse, and I had some family drama come up. The family drama was really disconcerting. On the one hand, I know I told my mom a couple of times about the porn work, and she'd been okay, but I guess she needed something to rage at me about, because I spent a couple days getting angry text messages. My dad was supportive, and so was my future mother-in-law. They're philosophy: You're helping keep your family afloat, so who cares. They didn't want to hear about it, but then they don't want to know ANYTHING about my sex life, so... Then the dream job came up and I started teaching people to paint. I still do, and the job is GREAT! It won't make me rich, mind you, but then neither was porn or modeling.

Then something funny happened: Work kept coming in. In case you hadn't noticed, the economy is still in the shitter, so I took the work. Some of the images are posted here. I also saw a HUGE uptick in traffic at my amateur site. Some of you might not know, but I came into modeling and porn via amateur pics and cam stuff. If you want to check it out, here you go: My profile on My Dirty Hobby

The Germans at My Dirty Hobby know me as "Pinkdots"

So, here I am, painting for a living, retired "adult model" and I'm writing a business plan for a dream shop for which I have no capital, and I keep getting emails offering me work. Mind you, it's all solo work. With AIM closing down, I don't know if I need to go through TTS if I want to do a hardcore shoot, or if I can just go to my OB/GYN and get tested. She's offered in the past, and that option would certainly be cheaper, but if I DO do any hardcore work, I want all involved to trust my results and not worry about it. In any case, I hope to know more by the end of the summer, because I'm looking forward to setting up a shoot with Kink.com again for http://www.boundgangbangs.com. Of course, I've never done a full on gang bang in my personal life, so I may need to set something up with friends... If any of my IRL friends are interested.

In any case, the "retirement" has turned into more of a "I'm not hunting for work, but I still take offers that come in very seriously". Besides the pro-am stuff I've put up over at My Dirty Hobby, here's an idea of stuff that's come out:

http://www.brandonlongwood.com/ Great mix of social network and porn. It's Brandon, who is one of the sweetest guys ever, fucking a wide variety of girls from pros to swinger house wives. Really check out his site!

Me and Brandon Longwood

http://qtscout.com/Portfolio.php The guys at Eros Hypermedia are fantastic and I'm planning on working with them some more this summer!

From Eros Hypermedia

From Pamela Rose Productions

http://pamelaroseproductions.com/ I LOVE these guys, and look forward to jumping in some more clay and mud this summer. It's also cool because I get to work with my BF behind the camera. For him, it's all about getting good shots and playing with cameras, I'm sure, but I like having him around. He does a lot of the image and video editing I need done. I'm great with Illustrator and Photoshop, but he's the one with the film background.

Missy and I for Dreamflixx.net

I also tried out for a soft girl/girl scene with my friend Missy Rhodes. It's weird, but Chicago is FULL of porn people, and no one has really organized it all. If we were all making money, I'm sure the industry could blossom here. We have a great city, great people, etc, etc, etc. In the meantime, while I'm waiting for Arkham City to come out, I've been busy beating Portal 2. Holy crap, the game is great! It's funny and spooky all at once, and just fun to play. Any game that can challenge my brain is a bonus too. I want to check out LA Noir at some point, but it can wait. So, until next time, I hope that clears up a few things.

xoxo,
Clayra Beau

It's been a trip...

2011-02-22T06:50:00.000-08:00

This week I got a new job as a painting instructor. It is in the field that my Bachelor's degree is in, it's close to home and I really want to do it. It also means that I am done doing modeling and adult film I knew when I started doing this I would not being doing it forever and this is a great time for me to call it quits. Thank you to all of the fans that have supported me. I appreciate you all following me on my adventures. So now go have some fun adventures of your own.

Peace,

Clayra Beau

Fables

2011-02-11T20:33:00.000-08:00

Alright time for a nerd-tastic installment of my blog. Someone asked me not long ago what my favorite Fables character was and I found it almost impossible to pick one.

Let me backtrack a minute here and explain what Fables is for those of you who may not know. Fables is a Graphic Novel Series created by Writer Bill Willingham. The story revolves around the idea that every fable or story we have ever heard is actually true. Not only are the stories true but the characters are too. Characters such as Cinderella, Snow White, Rose Red, Beauty and the Beast and even the Big Bad Wolf. These fable characters have been forced from their homelands to New York city to create a small town they call Fabletown. There are some Fables that cannot blend in with human culture, like talking animals, that live at The Farm in upstate New York. the Fables are all very modern people with great personalities of there own and each have a certain amount of power, for lack of a better term, based on the strength of the Fables told about them. The Big Bad Wolf, known as Bigby, and Snow White have a great amount of power where as fables like the Raven from Aesop are kind of weak.

So back to my favorite Fable, the character, not the story. For me Willingham has created such a diverse set of characters with such a varied set of motives and behaviors it is hard to like one over the other. They all have flaws and merits. Rose Red on one hand takes care of the animals at the farm and is rather patient and understanding but can be a real bitch sometimes. Snow White is very straight forward and almost too firm when working for Fabletown but when she is with Bigby and their children, yes Snow White has children with the Big Bad Wolf, she is very caring and sweet. Bigby. That is a whole set of conflicts right there. A wolf trying to be a man and having to fight his wolf nature is not that unfamiliar of a story but add the fact that his father is the North Wind and he is the former Sherriff of Fabletown and you have a wonderfully rich and entertaining character. He is rough around the edges and handles things very crudely but also with the greatest genius. He is endearing and irritating all at the same time. Speaking of irritating and endearing we have Jack of Fables. You know Jack be nimble, Jack and the beanstalk, Jack Horner, Jack and Jill, he is all of them. Literally. Those are all Fables about the Jack of Fables. He is an arrogant womanizer that hardly has a brain in his head but manages to be extremely funny when he puts his half a brain to it. And who can forget Cinderella. Now a spy and assassin, she can kill a room full of hit men in less than two minutes with nothing but her high heels and a bobby pin. Gotta love a girl who can kick some ass.

I could continue on forever describing all of the players in Fabletown but I will break it down to my 3 favorite characters. Flycatcher/ the Frog Prince, Bufkin the Flying Monkey and Frau Totenkinder. Bufkin is the money that lives in the business offices of Fabletown. He is a flying monkey, yes like the ones in the Wizard of Oz, and he has the knowledge of ages trapped in that head of his. He manges to over through a huge villian almost single handed in the latest trade of Fables and I was literally cheering for this cute, super intellegent monkey. I want to take one home but I think he might out smart me. :( Flycatcher used to be the janitor of the business offices of Fabletown. He had no idea that he was the Frog Prince for eons because the death of his wife had literally driven him insane. It was not until a great war began among the Fables that he sees a vision of his deceased wife telling him that he has to remember who his and go be the great king he was meant to be. It is one of the few times I have cried while reading a Graphic Novel. And finally my favorite character is the mysterious Frau Totenkinder. She is that witch in all of those stories that wants to catch and kill all of the little children in whatever creative why she could think up. She is the child killer. Now I know that you would think she is a villian but she is discovered by Snow White and Rose Red after Hansel and Gretel threw her ass in the fire. They help to nurse her back to health and she is now one of the many witches and warlocks that work for Fabletown creating charms and potions and generally trying to keep the peace. She is mysterious and dark but also very very sweet. She looks so old and frail you want to help her cross the street but inside she has the power to move mountains if she wants to. I adore her. I am not entirely certain why but she is my favorite Fable.

In the end this blog breaks down to a few points. 1) Fables is an amazing feat and anyone and everyone should check it out. 2) I am an uber geek who really just ranted on about a Graphic Novel. 3)... Okay so maybe there are only 2 points to this rant but they are totally true. I hope you are all having a wonderful day and a pleasant weekend. If bored, try Fables. You will love it. My mom even loves it and she hates comics. That's all folks. Goodnight.

Happy New Year!

2011-01-27T12:24:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone! I know I have been away for awhile but I am here with another installment of my adventures. Over the past month I have been doing a lot of photo shoots and fetish videos. I started out the month doing a photo shoot near Lake Geneva, WI. It was in the basement of a pizzeria. It is odd to think the things that are going on in your neighborhood. I have included some of the pics from that shoot here. I have to edit them all myself because the lighting was very dark. It is helping me learn how to use Aperture though. Yay!

Then I got the flu. Anyone who has not been sick this season, count yourself lucky. I was literally out of commission for nearly a week with a fever, headache, aches, congestion and fatigue. but I am all better now and getting back to work.

Last Saturday I went up to Green Bay to shoot with Midnite Images for their clips4sale store. I worked with my friend Missy doing some more Batgirl stuff. In this continuation of our saga, I beat my nemesis Lady Zorra and force her to become my sidekick Robyn. Of course we make out first and wrestle a little bit. I even picked up a brand new utility belt for my Batgirl outfit just for this shoot. After the super heroine stuff I became the victim of a chronically masturbating were-creature. She even ripped my face off! Of course she had to masturbate first and I couldn't help but join in the fun. Apparently masturbating near a were-creature can be dangerous. I love shooting with Midnite Images. We always do the craziest things.

I am working on setting up a shoot in March where I will go to the comic book store to get some rare books and find that I don't have enough money so I have to trade sexual favors for my favorite comics and graphic novels. I am working with the great people at Pamela Rose Productions to set it up and hopefully we will have it out to you soon.

So that is what I have been up to and what I have planned for now. I will definitely let you all know as more happens. Talk to you all soon.

XOXO,
Clayra Beau

A Hard City Indeed.

2010-12-06T15:23:00.000-08:00

As many of you know I just returned from a trip out to The Big Apple. It has been hectic with the Thanksgiving holiday and I finally have time to finish telling the story of my adventures there. Let me preface by saying that 90% of the trip was wonderful. There were some rough parts but we will get to that.

I landed at JFK around 6pm on Tuesday evening and in true Clayra style I hit the bricks running. I went straight from the airport to my first shoot with SHM Productions for their site undressedangels.com. It was a very laid back solo scene. I really hit it off with the people there and I think I have made from friends for life. How can I not love someone who geeks out about my plans to make a crochet Cthulu hat? After the shoot the photographer rode with me to Times Square. I had never been on a train in NYC so that was pretty damn cool. When I got back to the place I was staying I was starving and was amazed that in NYC you can order sushi for delivery at midnight. Sushi for the win!

The next morning I had to take the train out to New Jersey and do a shoot in Philadelphia with Blue Moon Productions. On my way to the train station I saw a lot of tagging on walls and garage doors but I had to stop and snap a pic of pedobear sprayed on an overheard door. My first shoot in Philly was a BJ scene. Not a big deal you say? Yeah, it was an hour and a half long BJ! My jaw hurts just thinking about it. By the by, a bit of advice to anyone who ever wants a girl to go down there, shave your balls. Hairy, fuzzy or stubbly balls are a girls worst enemy when she is rubbing her face there. Just think about whether you would want to rub your face on that before you get out of the shower everyday. Just something to keep in mind. The next scene in Philly was for a site with the premise that I am a high schooler auditioning to be on an amateur adult video site. Throughout this 'audition' I change into several different outfits from a cute cheerleader to a Christmas teddy and finally a very clingy naughty nurse outfit. It was an interesting shoot to say the least.

I got back to the City at about 8pm and went out for more sushi. There is something very fulfilling about a spicy tuna roll that just doesn't compare to anything else. After dinner I got dolled up and headed off to my next shoot. It was also in Manhattan so I didn't have to travel far to get there. I was shooting with a great guy named Walter and the shoot was supposed to be a B/G scene with some pretty girl photos and take maybe 2 hours. It took almost 4 hours because I got into a fight with him. Nothing horrible but when you state that the X-Men are not only cooler than Batman but the entire DC Universe, I have to geek smack you back into place. then the whole Marvel vs. DC argument started. " Do you think that Batman could really kick the Hulk's ass?" "Hello he took down Superman. I think he can handle the Hulk." :) I also had to revoke his nerd card for never having read a single Vertigo comic or knowing who Alan Moore was. Tisk tisk. So by the time I finished defending Batman's honor I got home and fell straight to sleep with visions of Harley Quinn choking out Jubilee running through my head.

Thursday my day started a little bit later. Mike from Monsterfilmz picked me up at 10am. We went over to a hotel clearly meant for partying to film a scene with Johnny Slim. We had to change rooms 3 times because all of the rooms had mirrors on the ceiling and walls and that just doesn't work for filming. And there was even a bottle opener already mounted on the wall next to the door. So shooting porn here was probably not an odd thing for this hotel. Johnny was awesome to work with. we joked around a lot and shot the shit and made a really awesome scene. After that was done Mike and I headed up to the Ravel in Queens to do a G/G scene with Indigo. Talk about a sexy women. I do love a woman with tats but she had a 42 on her back and a Gonzo tat on her rib and I was hooked. Definitely a fun and very hot scene. Thanks to Indigo for coming on such short notice.

Then the shit started. I was headed to a shoot with Facial Abuse. I had done my research and looked at the site. It look pretty damn rough but I was reassured it would be fine. Because of traffic I got there a little late. After I got my makeup done and got dressed everything was put on hold while we waited for the camera guy to show up. In that time I signed my contract and took some photos on set. Just before we started shooting I had to ask the producer to show me the male talents STD tests before we started which was met with some sighing and the tests. Shady for sure. At that point I just wanted to get done. when the camera guy finally arrived at midnight we started shooting. My plan was to try and get through as much of the scene as possible before taking a break. The fewer breaks, the sooner I could get a burger and pass out. Once we started I didn't even make it for 2 minutes before I had to stop. I started on my knees with the male talent literally shoving their cocks down my throat until I gagged an couldn't breath. I had to break because I was ready to pass out. when we started again it was no easier. I was still on my knees an the guys were so aggressive that at one point I literally had to stand up and push with all of my strength to get off of him. there is no point in having a safe word when you can't talk. I was clawing at their legs and slapping their thighs and they still wouldn't let up. So I took another breather and now I had 5 minutes of footage under my belt. After my break one of the guys picked me up and threw me over his shoulder and shoved me on him again. Then they pulled me off by my hair and smacked me in the face so hard it gave me a bloody nose. they didn't even notice that I was bleeding until they threw me onto the couch and started throat fucking me while my head hung off the couch. the guy jumped off and was like dude you have a bloody nose! That will look great on camera! I took another break and cleaned up my face and had some water. As I was sitting on the couch I noticed that I was having trouble seeing straight. One eye was looking one way and the other looked straight. So not cool. We started again with me leaning off the couch again and again I had to shove the guys off of me with all my might to be able to breath. I even threw myself on the floor to get away and they picked me back up, dropped me on the couch and kept going. finally I called for a break and took off for the dressing room. I was so done being abused. I was literally shaking and my brain was no longer in the just get through the

scene mode. It was very fight or flight and I could not go on anymore. After a quick call home and a cigarette, some people tried to comfort me and get me to finish the scene. I'm sorry but there was no amount anyone could pay me at this point to keep me going. After another minute to gather myself I walked back on set and said I was tapping out. They told me that they had about enough footage that they could sell it if they got the popshot so I sat on the floor and finished the scene. For all of that they paid me $200. I packed up my clothes and headed back to the city. I was so shook up I was crying on the way home too. I literally could not even swallow my soda. Those are the facts take them as you like. when I got back to NYC at 4am I was so exhausted I ate 4 Sun chips and fell asleep.

The next morning I was crazy sore and was still having trouble swallowing but I wanted to have some better memories to take home so I walked around the fashion district with a friend of mine. It was great to see some of the city before I let and went back to Wisconsin. Of course I had to deal with Delta being retarded on the way back but after the night before, it was all peaches and cream.

The stuff that happened to me should never happen to anyone so I would suggest a boycott of this site. With my shoot with Kink I knew I had people there that actually had my back and were doing it all for show. FA is all about hurting women as much as they can and getting away with it. One of the clauses in their contracts says that you can not come back to them for any physical or emotional damages caused during you shoot. Therefore they could literally fuck a girl up for life and she can do nothing about it. It's a typical clause but they really use it to their advantage.

I came home to my family and wonderful fans curious to know how it went. I posted several updates about what happened but that is the full story. After that I really needed to do something a bit calmer so I did a local workshop with some local photographers. It was a laid back Christmas shoot just west of Milwaukee. It felt really great to be more in control of my environment and what was going on around me. The pics turned out great even though I was really worried about the bruising on my eyes. Yay for sexy Christmas!

Thank you to everyone for your support and letting me tell me story. Have a wonderful and safe holiday season everyone and I will talk to you again real soon,

Clayra Beau

Halloween is Coming

2010-10-17T20:25:00.000-07:00

So the time for ghouls and goblins is upon us and I am still trying to figure out what to wear for the greatest night of the year. I am not sure whether I should be an sexy fairy or Batgirl. Hmm... Decisions decisions.

Things on the porn front are slow but I have managed to get a few great photoshoots in. I shot with the wonderful SF Photographic a couple of weeks ago and finally have some of the pics back. While they are not particularly risque I like them none the less. I am trying to set up a porn set for November and will keep everyone updated as the things are set up. I hope everyone has a wonderful Halloween and I will post pics of me in my sexy outfit as soon as I can.

XOXO

Clayra Beau

Long time no see...

2010-09-22T11:10:00.000-07:00

Wow! Has it been a busy couple of weeks for me. I have been doing a lot of modeling work lately and I did a porn shoot with Brandon Longwood yesterday so there is a lot to catch everyone up on.
One of the modeling gigs I did was with a photographer named Guy Zeno in Chicago who is submitting his photos to Score and MMG magazines. I am really hoping that in a few months time you can all walk down the street and buy a magazine with me plastered all over it. I will let you all know when the magazine will be released as soon as I know. They companies have six months to hold the pictures before publishing, so it could be out pretty soon, or it might be a bit.

I also did some work with a wonderful photographer in Milwaukee named Rick Garza. This was the second time I have worked with Rick and he does some awesome work. The main idea behind this shoot was to play with different colors of electrical tapes wrapped around my body to create a splash of color without the paint. It was a really cool concept so I jumped at it. It was a ton of fun to shoot except for spending half an hour slowly peeling tape off of my body so it would leave most of my skin behind. :) I had a lot of fun though and the images are awesome.

Most Recently I did a video shoot with Brandon Longwood. We shot 2 scenes together with the help of Amber Peach as our camera technician. In the first scene we shot, I play a landlord trying to collect back rent from a tenant when I discover that he makes porn and say I'll erase his debt if he shoots a porn with me in it. Of course, that lead to all sorts of hot sex and moaning. The next scene was a little more traditional porno, starting with a striptease and a BJ to various other positions until the eventual cumshot on the tummy. The cool part was that we shot it inside of an oversize octagon set piece. It made for some really cool positions and angles and I am really excited to see how it turns out. They were both a ton of fun and working with Brandon, and Amber was phenomenal. I always like to be able to relax on set and have fun and they were so laid back that we were even cracking jokes making funny faces at each other.

I have a couple more modeling shoots coming up in the next few weeks and then we will see where things take me in October. Maybe I'll manage a trip to shoot with Misty Haze in Colorado, or maybe out to New York again, where I KNOW there are people who want to shoot lots of stuff, including my first squirt video. :) I will keep you all updated. Kisses.

What I Have Been Up To

2010-08-27T20:57:00.000-07:00

So I realize that it has been a while since I have written to tell you guys what I have been up to. I have been working on a children's book with my boyfriend. We wanted to create a book about monsters for kids that adults might actually get a kick out of reading too. The book is told from the perspective of a 3 year old boy who things that his dad is a werewolf. I am doing the illustrations and we are hoping to eventually have it published. It is slow going but I am really excited to see the finished product.

Lately I have been watching Veronica Mars like a fiend. I love the detective mystery feel to the whole show and it is just amazing. I'm half way through the second season and I absolutely love it.

I have also been getting more modeling and adult work lined up. I should have some new photos of that very soon. Have a wonderful weekend everyone. Talk to you soon. I promise. :)

And here is the song I have had stuck in my head for the last week. Enjoy!

http://www.boingboing.net/2010/08/23/cee-los-fk-you.html

The City That NEVER Sleeps.

2010-08-14T17:56:00.000-07:00


Empire State looks small from here

As many of you know, I just returned from my second trip to the East Coast. If you have read about the adventure I had last time, know that this trip was far FAR better. I left Milwaukee airport at about 7 am and landed at LaGuardia airport around 11am. It was really cool to fly over Manhattan and see the Statue of Liberty and the New york skyline form the plane. I tried to take some decent photos from the plane but I always seems to end up with half of the wing in my photos. :) Anyway, my plane landed on time and one of the producers I was working with was already there to pick me up. See I told you it was better than my last trip. :)

That first producer was a wonderful man named Mike from Monsterfilmz, whose site is still under construction. I shot for Mike the last time I was in New York and he is wonderful to work with. He is always very laid back and easy to talk to. After he picked me up we went to the adult sex store to pick up some toys for the shoot that day. I was set to do a solo scene, a scene with Frank Steedz and a G/G with Michelle Haze for the first half of the day and shooting with The Pussy Jackers in the evening. At the sex store we picked up some stuff that would be really fun to use in a G/G situation. A French tickler, a breathable ball gag, a hogtie harness, a remote control bullet vibe and a dildo that suctions to the wall. All very fun and I was already super excited to be working with Michele so the toys just made it better. Then we went back to Mike's office to get paperwork and watch some Michael Jackson videos. It was a really nice way to wind down from the plane ride without being stuck in a hotel that I really couldn't wander around. After that he got us lunch and went over to the hotel to get ready for the shoot.

The hotel room we were shooting in was beautiful. It was right next to the Queensboro bridge so the view from the balcony was awesome. It was an absolutely huge room with gorgeous furniture and a wonderful bathroom. It was a little strange that there was no really wall between the bathroom and the rest of the room, just a half wall that kind of segregated one part from the other. It is kind of unsettling to have to pee and know that everyone in the room can hear you but you get over it. When we got there, I met the man who would be filming the scenes. Shooter was phenomenal. He really knows what he is doing and how to get into the scene to get just the right footage while still being able to communicate to me what exactly he wants to see more of. And he is a total ass man which works for my big booty! I don't think anyone has ever moved so fast to try and get a good look at my butt. :)

We started off the day by shooting some awesome pretty girl pics of me in my lingerie and moving to all nude. Then we did the solo shoot with me climbing into the tub and going at it with the remote controlled vibe. I love the way vibes make the water ripple. I think it is far more visually effective than a dildo or a hand slid between the legs. then we moved on to the B/G with Frank. He is very sweet and amazingly professional for someone who admitted that it was only his 6th shoot. The scenario was that I was an escort who came to the wrong room, the room of an über geek who was having trouble getting laid anyway, and gave him the time of his life. Best line from the set "The guys in my chess club will never believe this!". It was so much fun to watch Frank play up that geek angle.

Frank's a sweetie :)

After that we all kind of sat and chilled for a little bit until it was absolutely certain that Michelle was not going to be able to make it. I am not entirely sure why, whether she got stuck in traffic or what, but I am really bummed that I didn't get to work with her and I hope that next time I am out on the East Coast we can work together.

As Mike was packing up to leave the next person I was set to be working with came in, John E. Depth. John was a lot of fun. He has a very energetic personality and is always full of great advice. I would later find out there was a reason that he has the name he does, but we will get to that. I was set to start working with Pussy Jackers at 9pm but because of some delays and confusion they were a little late, but we were all up anyway so the scene went off just fine. I was set to do a B/G with John and a G/G with Kendra Starr that night but Kendra was also unable to make it so the scene turned into a B/B/G scene where I was "drugged" and then ganged up on. Part of what makes Pussy Jackers interesting is that the site is built around an urban legend about a group of men who convince women to have sex with them by hook or by crook, film it, and then post it on the internet. Yes, like most porn the premise IS a little out there (I still can't believe people think "bang bus" was real), but this is a little darker and grittier, and thus stays relevant to it's roots in New York, AKA "Gotham". As it turned out, John has something like a 20 foot long cock... Okay, maybe it's more in the neighborhood of "Holy Shit!", but the man's name is absolutely dead on, and he knows how to use it so he doesn't kill a girl. It was a lot of fun to suck and fuck him and Frank again, and I was definitely exhausted by the end of the shoot. It was about 4am when we finished, which was 24 hours from when I had woken up to get to the airport the day before, so I passed the hell out. This is why it is the city that never sleeps: all the damn porn! :)

The next morning I was up and out of the hotel by noon and on my way back to good old Wisconsin. Of course since I was flying Delta (worst airline ever!) my plane was delayed for 2 and a half hours so I didn't get home until about 8:30 at night but at least I got home. When I landed in Milwaukee I was greeted with warm hugs and smiles and went out to dinner with the fam. It sucks to leave home, but it is always good to come back.

My Kink-iest Adventure Yet.

2010-07-30T14:55:00.000-07:00

So after a couple of days of recuperation, I am sitting down to tell the tale of my shoot with Kink.com. It was an exhausting shoot and after you read about it you will understand the mini break.

I took off for San Francisco on Monday evening from Milwaukee and landed around 9 at night. I was immediately picked up by the Kink.com driver and driven to the armory, with a quick stop for a bite to eat along the way. For people who have read my post about my adventures in New Jersey, you will appreciate how absolutely wonderful little things like being picked up on time and getting food can be. But I digress. I was given an awesome single room in the armory when I arrived and given a tour so that I could find the bathroom and green room. I was amazed by the fact that the bathroom was stocked with everything you could possibly need when travel. No really. they had shampoo, conditioner, shaving cream, razors, toothpaste, toothbrushes, hair ties, brushes, combs, bobby pins and of course huge containers of lube. they even had a whole section of the bathroom filled to the nines with hygiene products like douches, enemas and tampons. It is so nice to be able to travel and know that all of that stuff is taken care of at no extra cost. :). In the green room there was a fridge stocked with food and drinks for the taking, a large screen plasma TV, a mac desktop computer and very comfy couches and chairs to just chill out before or after the shoot. My bed was so amazingly comfortable, way better than a blow up mattress on the floor, that after a quick call home to let everyone know i was alright, I passed out super easy.

My call time on Tuesday wasn't until 3:30 but of course my body woke my up at 9 am so I spent several hours of the day chilling in my room reading Preludes and Nocturnes, Unwritten and Wanted. Here in lies the nerdy portion of my trip. I loved reading Sandman. I was not a huge fan of the art in about the first half of the book but I have always loved Neil Gaiman's writing so this really hit a chord with me. Unwritten has a wonderful concept and I can't wait to see where the story goes. I only read the first trade so I will have to read the rest very soon to understand fully what is going on. But the play on Harry Potter throughout the book is ingenious. I also really liked Wanted. It is very very different than the movie but after reading the graphic novel I can understand why some of the things in the storyline just could not be added to a movie that is actually supposed to cater to a wide audience. Also the fact that the main character is supposed to look like Eminem intrigued me in the same way that the main character of The Boys is supposed to look like Simon Pegg. I always love when they use people I recognize as an inspiration for the art. Anyway back to the Kink shoot.

At 3:30 I went down to the talent office and filed all of the customary paperwork for this type of shoot plus a list of things that I didn't want the crowd to do to during the shoot. Simple things like don't spit on me, don't pee on me, don't hit me in the face and don't try to kiss me. Like I said very simple. The crowd later had to read this list and agree to it before they were allowed to participate in the shoot. From there I went up to makeup and started to get dolled up. The makeup tech was so friendly and we swapped stories as she made me look all hot and sexy and stuff. As I was getting gussied up, Donna walked in and we met for the first time in person. I had spoken to her online before but this was the first time we met face to face. I hate to ruin her reputation, but she is the sweetest girl ever. The hard core bitch you see on Public Disgrace is the polar opposite of the women I met humming country tunes in the makeup chair. After I was all done getting pretty the wardrobe director came in and got me dressed in a skin tight purple dress with a square neck and half length sleeve. I know you probably don't care what my clothes looked like but it made me look

At the the bar before the shoot began.

hot. I almost wish it were still in one piece and I could add it to my collection of hot outfits. Oh well. when I was all dressed up and ready to go I went with Donna down to one of the sets in the armory, which is fucking huge by the way, and had a before interview. We chatted about how I found out about the site, why I wanted to do the shoot and what I was excited and apprehensive about. Tommy Pistol even sat in on the interview and it gave me a chance to get to know him a little bit before we were whisked off to the bar in San Francisco where the event would take place. While riding in the van with Donna, Tommy and James Deen I had time to get more comfortable with everybody including hearing a wonderful inside joke about biting dolphins.

The bar was a nice small bar with a couple of comfy couches and a pool table. There I met Pony. I can't for the life of me remember what her job title was but wonderful angel should definitely be added to her job description. If there was anything I ever needed she was right there. Whether it be a helping hand, someone to talk to or just a sip of water and my bathrobe. She was amazing not that everyone wasn't but she really helped the night go smoothly for me. While they were setting up lights and stuff, she even brought me a glass of wine for me to sip on while I chatted with the guys. Tommy and James and really awesome and funny and it was great to get to talk to them before they started abusing me in every way possible.

The shoot started with James leading me into the bar in shackle but a leash and Donna chaining my to a pillar in the middle of the bar. I was then blind folded and the crowd was let loose to fondle me and basically do as they pleased. Very shortly there after that pretty little dress I told you about earlier was literally ripped off my body to leave me standing naked in front of the crowd. that was when the pain began. With a couple of nipple twists from Tommy and James to get things going the crowd was quickly lining up to smack my tits or my legs or see how many fingers the could shove in my various holes. There was one person who was clearly very zealous about smacking my tits around because I had to shortly stop the scene to tell him to stop hitting me so hard. My boobs were all sorts of black and blue from just that one guy beating the shit out of them. Then Donna brought out the electro-tazer thing, I don't know what it's really called, but it hurt like hell. Between Donna, Tommy and James they proceeded to zap my chest stomach and legs with electric shock until I was literally screaming in pain. It's difficult to brace for it when you have a blind fold on and can't see it coming. At one point I even had nipple clamps on that also hurt like a bitch. All in all it was a good hurt but in the moment it was a lot to handle. After about 15 minutes of torture we took a quick break and I got to sit down and relax. I was literally shaking in shock.

Taking a breather while tied up.

When we got going again it was time for the blow jobs. The blindfold was removed and I was quickly switched between Tommy and James' cocks with barely a second to breath. Definitely the most hardcore BJ's I have ever given but it was a ton of fun. It even made my eyes water. After another quick break, Donna tied my up and walked me over to the pool table where she had me lay down and she went to town fisting my cunt. Her hand slid in super easy but it gave me an amazing squirting orgasm that got the majority of the guys in the front row wet in many ways. :) I know this because every hand that got wet was in my mouth a second later. Note to self for next shoot, no hands in the mouth. I have no clue where those hands have been and I have a generally small mouth so it's just really uncomfortable. Tommy and Donna then fit 4 hands in my cunt at once and made me cum again. After that I was stood up and made to come all over the floor again. Then while I was still tied up we moved over to one of the couches and started the fucking. James got behind me and started to nail me really hard. Which just caused me to slip all over the couch cause I had no arms to hold myself up. After a while, in character, he got tired of me falling all over and pushed my neck into the back of the couch so I could breath or move. After I started seeing stars we had to take a break but we were quickly back into it with James behind me and Tommy in front of me getting head while I got nailed. After a while I ended up on my back on the couch with Tommy's cock in my ass. That was probably one of the nicest points in the evening. Just a good ass fucking. Of course the site isn't about nice fucking so of course the pain came back in very quickly. When Tommy was done fucking my ass, Donna sat me down on the couch and slapped the shit out of my thighs. To anyone who has never been slapped by someone who knows how in the thigh, it hurts. I even still have her hand marks on my legs. I was then bent over the arm of the couch and nailed while I gave a crowd member a hand job. Then I was giving James Deen a BJ while getting railed. when the guys were ready to cum I knelt down on the floor and got 2 shots in the face. I was made to sit there for a couple of minutes with the tazer under my chin so that I couldn't close my mouth or she would shock me. Then Donna tried to make me cum one last time with the vibe while I jerked off two guys from the crowd. After a while she got fed up and cuffed me to a chair and left me there with a group of hungry looking men and women looking on. And that's a wrap. Never were sweeter words spoken. After a quick interview with Donna about the shoot, we all packed up and headed back to the Armory. I had a ton of fun and everyone was so amazing. Even though my boobs are still bruised and I can't lean on my left side just yet from the pain in my thigh, this was definitely one of my favorite shoots.

After the shoot

When we got back to the Armory, I took a very long soapy shower and called home to say good night before I drifted into a very deep, exhausted sleep. The next day I caught my flight home and was back in the Great White North before dinner time. It was probably the best part of my trip to be able to come home to smiling faces and hugs. I really needed a hug and a vacation after the night I had.

So that is the shoot from my side. I am not sure when the scene will be posted on Public Disgrace but I will definitely let you all know the second I know. As I have said, Kink.com is the best company I have ever worked for and I will forever be a loyal fan if not a frequent actor on the site (fingers crossed). Thank you so much to everyone who recommended me and made the shoot possible. I have the greatest fans in the world.

Exxxtacy Chicago 2010 - Days 2-3

2010-07-20T23:47:00.000-07:00

Wow! Saturday was the busiest day by far at the Exxxtacy Convention in Chicago. From the time the doors opened at 1pm until they closed at 10 the floor was covered in fans, hotchicks and pornstars baring their breasts in all their glory. It had been made clear to several people what was all right to show at the convention and what was not, and boobies were definitely on the okay to show list, so from the second I walked in on Saturday I was surrounded by gorgeous breasts. Sea J Raw even spent the majority of the day in only her underwear and was giving fans topless lap dances in her booth. A very cool idea I may have to keep in mind for a later convention. :)

My table on Saturday was right next to the amazing Lexi Belle. She is the sweetest and cutest girl ever! I really liked hanging out with her over the run on the con and would definitely love to work with her if the occasion should arise. As I said, Saturday was insanely busy. I met a large amount of fans from all different walks of life but there are a few that stick out in my mind. A fan named Greg walked past my table looking as though he were bored out of his mind so I started up a conversation with him about the differences between this convention and other conventions I had been to. Of course, there was more nudity at Exxxtacy then Wizard World or C2E2, but we both agreed, having seen the crowds at those conventions, that was probably for the better. As we talked, another fan came by and question whether I was really a Star Trek fan or just wore the shirt to draw attention. Now this man was a full blown Trekkie. I like Star Trek and all but I have not memorized the titles of all of the episodes, nor could I tell you what George Takei's tour schedule from memory. But I adore a good geek among the masses. There is only so long I can talk about T&A before I long for a conversation high in nerdy goodness. I even met a fan who was wearing a Netherlands soccer jersey and we talked about the World Cup for a while. They played wonderfully this year and I think I'll be rooting for them when Euro 2012 rolls around.

I also spent a large amount of the day chatting with the event staff. As I had mentioned before, the event staff for Exxxtacy was amazing. They were very mindful of the drunks. Whenever I started to have a problem with a drunk who was starting to get a little too out of control of was just verging on the clingy side, I could literally turn around and give the event staff a glance that told them to get his person away from me. They were also extremely great about just letting the boobies and sexual content fly. It's a convention based around sex so there is no reason to rein it in if everyone else there is cool with it. One of the security guards even said they walked in on Ron Jeremy getting head in the back room TWICE from fan girls and just turned around and let it be. I even had a crew of the event staff that would walk me outside when I needed a break so that I wouldn't have to deal with too many random drunk people. I think they just liked the idea of being outside on a paid break but I can't blame them :) Thank you to Cody and the rest of the wonderful event staff!

Sunday was a slower day by far. It was not as slow as Friday had been, but it was an early day so the crowd didn't really pick up until about 2pm, after the event had been open for 3 hours already. Much of the talent did not show up again on Sunday so that left a big hole in the show. It was the most relaxed day of the event though. There was no rush to get fans to your booth and then get them away so you could talk to the next person standing there. I remember the day being full of long conversations and tons of great jokes. I spent a long time talking with Scott Church, a wonderful photographer from Pennsylvania, about the acceptability of violence versus sex in the US. It as always seemed interesting to me that it's okay to show gruesome car accidents and murders all over the news but bare breasts are just out of the question. Weird how something we have all seen in person is something we are no allowed to see on TV. I am not saying let your kids watch porn, but there is not reason to hide the human form, in good taste, and then turn around and be perfectly fine showing your kids Saw 4. But I digress.

I also had a wonderful conversation with Jim Powers of Immoral Productions about the Premiere League and European Football firms. It was great to hear stories about how he and Dan Leal had been stuck in a cage with the visiting team's firm on accident once. I don't think it came to any violence, but I wouldn't want to be stuck there on accident, just saying.

Overall the convention went extremely well and i would love to see it in Chicago again next year. to everyone who stopped by and said hi, thank you. I appreciate it. I hope to see you all again soon.

OH! And if anyone missed it, here's the video from the Ron Jeremy/Sunny Lane foot incident the day before :)

Exxxtacy Chicago 2010 - Day 1

2010-07-16T22:28:00.000-07:00

Today was the first day of Exxxtacy Chicago 2010, and my first porn convention. All in all, it was a good day, but a long one. First off, without going into grody detail, it's a bad time of the month for me... I'll leave it at that. When I got there, I had a hell of a time finding parking, but once I did, I got in, got my badge, and then I got dolled up. I figured, in this heat, it wouldn't be cool to do it at home an have all the make up and hair gunk melt on the way there, so I found a bathroom and got ready.

At first it was kind of dead. There weren't a lot of people there and most of the other porn stars who were supposed to be in "the play ground" weren't there yet. On one side of me was Diamond Kitty, and on the other was Sunny Lane. I was there maybe ten minutes when I had the first shitty experience of the day. There was a guy who does fetish videos here in Chicagoland that I was supposed to work for back in February. Unfortunately, I developed a cold sore, and showed up at his "set" (his house, no one out here has an actual set) to tell him I could cover it up with make-up and do the beating/guy abuse stuff if he wanted, but I wouldn't do mouth-to-genital contact because cold sore's aren't fun for anyone. He declined, we went our separate ways, and I contacted him about rescheduling after I healed. Well, he shows up today and starts cutting me down, telling me that our first interaction was a huge disaster, and he didn't understand why I was there. "What are you supposed to be promoting?" he asked. "I'm just trying to get my name out there." I replied. The guy was a dick, and all he was there for was to try and cut me down. It might have fucked up my day, except that not a minute after he left, these really awesome chicks came by.

These girls from the city were walking around the convention looking solely, it seems, to cheer the porn girls up if they were down and generally be nice to everyone. They were giving out lotion, and chocolates, and bottles of water... Just to do it, to keep everybody happy.. Wow, did I need that in that moment. It was amazingly well timed, and we talked about art and college and they got big hugs from me when they moved on. They were easily one of the best parts of my day.

Later, when Sunny Lane got there, I felt a little down again. I was flanked by two fairly well established porn stars. Sunny had a line 30 people deep. Diamond told me I should really have brought more stuff to sell, and I felt sort of ashamed that all I had to offer really was a couple of 4x6s. I was too broke to invest in trading cards, and I only have one DVD appearance to my name so far. I realize that I'm new, and that I'm really having to fight my way into the biz, but the reality is that I'm NOT moving as fast as I might be if I were living in LA. I know she was only trying to be helpful, and for a bit I was bummed out, but then Ron Jeremy came by. Ron was about 4 tables down, and apparently bored. As Sunny Lane was getting a foot rub, he comes by and says, "I have an idea!". Oh no... Here we go :)

So, Sunny's escort was rubbing her feet, Ron had Sunny rub his cock (through his pants), and he pulled my top down and started rubbing and sucking on my tits. Then Ron's hand magically winds up first on my ass, then my crotch, at which point I warn him that it's probably not a good (or at least sanitary) idea. Ever the legend, a man among men, Ron goes, "Oh, I don't care. You could have a thousand tampons in there and I wouldn't care!" with that signature hedgehog smile. THAT is a man who loves pussy. ALL pussy. At that point I just shrugged and we made a good show of it. There were lots of "O" faces and we just had fun. I even ended up getting a foot rub/toe sucking out of it from Sunny's escort. :)

Over the course of the day I got to meet a bunch of industry folks, sure, but also a ton of great fans! One guy was shocked to see me there and claimed to have subscribed to all the sites I was on because I was his favorite and he gushed about how bad he felt for leaving the DVD I'm in at home because he didn't know I'd be there. I assured him I'd be back for day 2, so I hope I get to sign for him tomorrow. There were also a lot of new fans too. One guy, just wandering by, commented that it was like comic-con, but with hot chicks. I pointed out that there ARE hot chicks at comic-con, and that I go to comic-con. Then we talked comics and my blog and he picked up a copy of my Star Trek pic. Really cool dude, and if you're reading this, thanks for being cool!

In between the cool people, the mutual rubbing, awesome fans, and the occasional clumsy drunk (convention security, you guys are hella awesome, thanks!), I did an interview with Striptaculous.com with Curtis Isom. Check there site in the next couple days and hopefully you'll get a chance to hear it!

Damn... LOOOOOOONG day, and I get to do it again tomorrow! I'm still excited about my Kink.com shoot coming up, but I'll talk more about that in another blog. Now, time for shower and bed... And maybe some more Enchanter's End Game :)

Pamela Rose Preview

2010-07-08T17:52:00.000-07:00

It's not much, but it gives you the idea of the shoot I had in the mud for Pamela Rose! That's me and Syn :)

Dirty Girl!

2010-06-30T22:23:00.000-07:00

Hello again everyone! I apologize for there being such a delay between blogs but I have had a very hectic couple of weeks. I spent almost a week visiting family in the middle of the month. It was wonderful spending time in the gorgeous northwoods of Wisconsin for a while. It was rather rainy for a couple of days but the sun came out eventually and it was great. The middle of nowhere can be a great break form my busy life but I have never liked the rush that always occurs when I need to get back to work. :)

After I got back, I got to work doing local photo shoots. I did a great bondage shoot the day
after I got home and I hope to keep doing more with Dennis. I also did a shoot with Chris from Silverflash Studios. We got some great nude shots and even a pic of me with an iPad. Being a huge Mac nerd myself, this was a dream. It only could have been better if I had remembered to bring my Star Trek shirt to shoot with. I'm sorry to say but Mac is slowly making the technology on Star Trek look lame. We may not have flying cars but we have hand held communicators, cardboard thin computer files, touch screen everything and computers that talk back to you. Anyway I digress.

Last Saturday I had the amazing experience of playing in the mud. Yes, I have played in the mud, as I am sure we all have at some point in our lives. Many an afternoon has been spent sinking fingertips in to the soggy ground after a rain storm just to hear that wonderful popping sound when they are pulled out. Okay, maybe not everyone did it, but I did, so there. :). Well, I got to play in whole pits of mud. I worked with Robert and Pam from pamelaroseproductions.com to do some mud pit sinking stuff. I set out from the Milwaukee area at 6:30 am to get to the private property they use. They have 2 pits dug out that are about 6 feet deep, lined in a tarp and filled with peat moss and the kind of clay you get at the spa. With the encouragement of a wonderful cast and crew I sank into a pit of thick, sticky clay until it completely covered my face. It was interesting how easy it actually was to get used to being in a pit full of a substance that felt like a mix of Gak and very
warm tapioca.

After showering off I jumped right into the peat moss pit. When I say jumped I mean jumped. The peat moss was far thinner and had begun to float on the top of the pit so when I went to jump in, instead of sinking in to about my chest like I was supposed to, I sank straight to the bottom! It was very dirty and I swore I would be washing peat moss out of my hair for weeks. After a great lunch, I did a scene with one of my fellow models, Vee, where I sank her into the moss pit at gun point for cheating with my husband, only to find out it wasn't her who he had been cheating with. So her ghost chases me down in the woods and pushed me down into the pit with her. Very creepy and uber fun.

I then did a sensual solo scene in the spa clay. Clay isn't my turn on, but looking erotic is fun no matter what you are covered in. I rinsed off and jumped back in the pit with Syndee. She has done this a ton of times and she was a great help the whole day. Her and I rubbed warm sticky clay all over each other and then made out in the clay pit for a while before climbing out and cleaning each other off very slowly. Okay maybe clay could be my new thing. :) Anyway I had a lot of fun and I plan to keep doing more of it as soon as I can. I have couple more shoots coming up very soon I will let you all know about when they are done.

And just as a reminder, the Exxxtacy Convention in Chicago is coming up July 16, 17 and 18th. I would like to see as many familiar faces as I could, and it would be cool to put some faces to names, so come and visit me if you are in the area.

Talk to you all very soon. Have a wonderful holiday weekend and be proud to live in the great country we live in.

Clayra.

Check ignition and may God's love be with you

2010-06-04T01:15:00.000-07:00

My world has been crazy lately. Over the past couple of days I have been going to several end-of-year events at my son's school. I've been very busy running back and forth to school, getting meals ready and putting kids to bed. Unfortunately this means that I fell behind on checking out my Twitter and Myspace pages. Last night when I logged in I was devastated to find that one of the sweetest men I have met in the industry, Tom Wong (whose real name was Herbert Wong), was murdered by an ex-associate of his, Steve Driver. The last time I was in LA I costarred with both of these men at Ultima DVD Studios for femdomcuckolding.com, Ballbustingpornstars.com, and Armpitsgirls.com. This was my first ball kicking experience and Tom was very sweet and amazingly fun to work with. He had an amazing sense of humor and his laughter and smile lit up the room. After we were done shooting, we kept in contact through Twitter and email. In true nerd girl fashion, the last thing we talked about was the geeky T.V. shows we were watching (me Buffy & Angel, him Smallville). I am deeply saddened by his loss and my heart goes out to all of the guys at Ultima DVD and his family.

As I mentioned, I had also worked with Steve. When we met he was suffering from a head cold and a hangover and seemed a little creepy to me. There was something about him that seemed off, but i suppose I just chalked it up to him not feeling well. Apparently he had been living at the studio but was not working up to snuff and was asked to leave the company and the studio by June 2nd. According to an article published in LA Weekly, Steve entered the studio on June 1st and began attacking people with a samurai sword. Whe Tom rushed to their aid he was stabbed in the stomach and later succumbed to his injuries at a nearby hospital. Even typing it makes me furious. I really do not, and never will, understand how someone can get to that point where being upset turns into a killing spree. I called my friend Sophie Dee and talked to her about it. She had also worked with Tom and was saddened and shocked by the news. She reminded me that anyone could have been there. Ultima DVD often shoots at night, so there could have been any amount of people there including me or Sophie or any number of people we know. After the attack, Steve got into his car and drove off with the sword. As far as I know he has yet to be caught, and there is now a reward out for any information that will lead to his capture. I hope he gets caught and I'm really not sure what I hope gets doen to him, but I want him to feel the pain he has caused so many people by taking such a wonderful person from the world.

I started to post updates about the situation on Twitter. I received more news and talked to more people who had worked with Ultima DVD. I also recieved several message that asked how a person so clearly unbalanced could be allowed in the industry. I even recieved a message that said, "Welcome to porn we have our fair share of ex-felons and criminals ...". I responded saying that we also have college grads, business moguls, and artistic geniuses: In a lot of ways, the porn world is just a microcosm of the mainstream, like a subculture everyone gets to watch. There are felons and college grads no matter where you go. I am tired of the stereotype that the porn industry is made up of damaged, drug-addicted stupid felons that can't find any other work. It bugged me more when someone said that there were no more than 10 college grads or educated people in the industry. So I took an impromptu poll via Twitter on how many people in the biz have Bachelor's degrees. The response was brief, but decisively more than the "ten at most" another guy in the industry tried to tell me. At my last count there were over a dozen people that I talk to that are college grads. Tera Patrick has a degree in microbiology and was a Registered Nurse before getting into porn. Bobbi Starr graduated from a conservatory and plays the oboe professionally. I am sure there are even more people out there with degrees. I have a BA in Art, as do several other girls I've talked to like Ruby Violence and Amber Chase. We are not a group of broken idiots just making sex videos because our lives are otherwise empty, we're people who like sex and think getting paid to do it on film is pretty fucking awesome. My point is that murder is a tragedy, and no one should simply shrug this off and say that it comes with the territory, especially not others in the industry. Tom may you rest in peace, you will be sorely missed.

formspring.me

2010-05-26T12:07:00.001-07:00

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Not Sure What the Problem is...

2010-05-13T16:36:00.000-07:00

Okay, I talked to my agents at OC Modeling today, and they've been going through some restructuring, bringing on Phil Mack from Mack's Models and dropping a bunch of girls, etc. They've been looking around, trying to find me work in LA for a couple weeks, and believe it or not, there's just been zero interest in me. Nadda, zilch, none...

It's kind of disheartening. I know I'm not a 18-20 year old who could pass for 16. I know I'm not a huge, established name. I know I'm based out of Wisconsin instead of LA or Miami. I also know that the industry is suffering from various issues, including rampant piracy and the worst recession we've seen in ages. Still, I'm a young woman who has very few limits, gets the word out about every project she does to every corner of the internet without question, and I'm in pretty good shape. I've got no tats or piercings and my boobs are natural 36DDs. I work hard to keep people interested, and I hear most people think I'm interesting. So what do I need to do?

I shot my very first scene for a small site in Chicago back in December. My first LA scenes were shot by Billy Watson in February, the first for Mr. POV and Blacks on Blondes a couple days later. The BOB scene seems to have been pretty popular, and it was only my third scene ever. I know I've got a lot to learn about this biz, but I can't figure out what else needs to happen or what I'm doing wrong. I've tried contacting directors and producers myself with mixed results. Dan Leal of Immoral last told me that he books everything a month in advance. That's fine by me, as it translates to lower airfare for me, but then I see his posts here on ADT about "Just booked a new girl for next week" and wonder if he's just giving me a polite blow-off because he doesn't like my look, thinks I'm too old, or just doesn't like that I cheer for the rival of his favorite football team. Ed Vincent over at Kink, last I emailed with him, wanted me to let him know when I move to LA. Sorry, Ed, I'm not moving to LA, I've got too many family obligations here in the Midwest. I'll gladly book a trip and stay in your part of California a few days to shoot what I believe would be some amazing porn, but hey, I need to know I've got work lined up before I spend money that I need to make back. I've talked to various agents, producers, directors, PR folks, porn girls, and even drivers, and either people are too damn nice, or they genuinely like me and want to see me do well, but it doesn't explain why I can't find work.

I know, this is long-winded whining, and I should probably just shut up and suck a cock, but I'm getting frustrated. If you're reading this and you are a producer, or you know a producer, get in touch with OC Modeling and book my ass, please! Book my pussy and my mouth and my tits while you're at it too. Til then, I'll keep working what I can find. I've started doing web cam work over at Naked.com, I'm booking scenes for smaller, Chicago based websites like Ivydevore.com, and I'm going to continue to be that pestering girl from the Midwest who wants to shoot porn with the big girls in LA.

Thanks for listening folks, and if you CAN help, thanks in advance for it. Just for that, I'll post a cumshot pic from Gloryhole.com. You should check out their site!

Yep, he got cum in my hair :P

That's Double Phallic, You Know.

2010-05-01T21:00:00.001-07:00

As I said in my last blog, I have been a busy bee, and it has not really slowed down since then. Last weekend I did another trade for content shoot with a local photographer. I had a ton of fun posing nude, in sexy lingerie, adorned in full bat babe gear and even posing in for my newest Star Trek wardrobe proposal fantasy. What can I say, I'm a nerd girl, so a day of running around as the sexy embodiment of the things I love is just a dream come true for me. On Monday, I did a shoot with all blue foods. For several hours I was covered in little more than blue jelly beans and blueberries. Although very messy, it was extremely fun and very tasty. I'm pretty sure my skin tasted like blueberries for days afterward. Mmmmm blueberries.

This weekend I flew out to Washington D.C. for an adult video shoot. I arrived in Baltimore on Friday morning and spent the first half of the day in our nation's capitol. I was very excited to see such phenomenal sights as the World War II Memorial, The White House and the Smithsonian. For lunch I ate a hot dog in front of the Washington Monument. Besides being a major nerd, I am also a history buff so this was a real treat for me. I could spend days just wandering around the capitol taking in all of the rich history there. After sightseeing I returned to my hotel and began filming with my photographer. He took several hundred pics of me both nude and in lingerie. After all of the pics we started shooting video. Once again I played the scolding MILF role. It must be the glasses. I walked into the room and yelled at him for not being asleep and then proceeded to give him the best BJ he has ever had because I know how to make a man sleepy. After having a huge load blown on my face we both washed up, he headed home and I went to bed. I woke up Saturday morning to continue filming. We did a scene in which I pretend to be asleep and he fondled me up and down while I lay unconscious. Oddly enough, I am the lightest sleeper I have ever known so it took ever thing I had not to giggle when he whispered into the camera, "It's a good thing you're a heavy sleeper." After that he gave me a vulva massage until I came all over the bedspread. Yeah I can be rather messy. We finished the day with another wonderful BJ. We washed up and headed to the airport and I was back home in time for dinner. I think that counts as a busy weekend.

This morning I was up early to hop the train to Chicago for a Hustler-style shoot. I got to show of my naked body, supple tits and gorgeous ass for the camera. The photographer plans to take the best photos from today and submit them to Penthouse, Hustler and Maxim, so fingers crossed. I really enjoy shooting nude pics. I always feel so sexy afterward I just want to come home and masturbate for a couple days.

When I got home I checked my email to find this video from a shoot I had done a couple of weeks ago. I did a scene with the wonderful Ivy Devore and her man. Check her out here at Ivydevore.com. Together we gave her boyfriend the sexiest blowjob I have ever been a part of. I think after you watch this vid you will agree. We spent a couple of minutes making out before we devoured his cock. Together we ran our tongues up and down his shaft and took turns sucking on his cock and balls. It was so hot we finished with cum all over both of our faces and a very sweet kiss. It's a hot video.

So the hectic life of a Nerd-Girl in Porn Land continues. Things are going to keep getting crazier and I am glad you are all here for the ride.

XOXO,
Clayra Beau

Busy Bee

2010-04-20T21:40:00.000-07:00

I have been a busy bee for the last several weeks. Since I returned from my epic adventure on the east coast I have been trying to build my portfolio by doing TFC shoots with local photographers. For those of you who don't know, a TFC shoot is one in which I receive no monetary compensation for my time but instead receive a disc with all of the pics that were taken with full rights to the photos. I have done a couple of shoots over the last few weeks and have even more of them coming up. A lot of stars do this if they are trying to build their own websites. No ladies and gents, I am not trying to build my own websites but I do need to have pics for a pretty interesting reason. I want to have all new photos on hand when I appear at the Exxxtacy Convention in July. Yes I will be at a booth at The Donald E. Stephens Convention Center in Chicago from July 16th to the 18th. So if you are in the area I will be there with a stack on all new pics for everyone who stops in to say hi. I will be doing signings and you'll probably recognize me as the only star reading a comic book at my booth. So stop on by I would love to meet you.

http://www.exxxtacyshow.com/entertainment.php

The Good, The Bad, and the Horny: A Cautionary Tale, to say the least... (Part 2)

2010-04-03T01:44:00.000-07:00

(Recap: I answered an ad for porn work only to find myself on a plane to New Jersey with no actual work planned and sat at an airport for five hours before the so-called "agent" we're calling "John" finally picked me up and brought me to the model house where he attempted to get a higher rate than he'll ever deserve and asked me to do a BJ video to cover rent for the "model house" wherein I was given an empty room with an air mattress.)

The next morning, I woke up and called home and vented about the night before for over an hour. Everything at this point just seemed shady, so my man took a break from researching whatever he was researching for work and turned those skills toward my situation. After my call, "John" took me out to get some groceries. When we got back to the model house, which was actually just "John's" apartment, he once again asked me when I wanted to shoot the content scene. Hmm... Let me think... NEVER!!! But I didn't want to start an issue with the guy, so I just stalled and said I was tired and went and hid in my room. JDevil called me that night and told me he had a friend who was looking to schedule a shoot for the next night. Her name was Lavender Rayne. I contacted her and set up a shoot for the next night at 9:30pm, after the shoot that "John" had setup for me. She would pay me more than double what "John" had found me. I told "John" about it and he said he could get me there no prob. He also said that he knew someone who was looking to setup a gang bang scene, but not for this week, maybe for the next time I was out.

We called the guy and found out that he was trying to setup the "scene" for him and a bunch of his friends. I started to grow suspicious immediately and pointed out that I don't work with anyone who isn't tested. He said that he wasn't sure they all were, but he would check, and if they weren't then he would demand they wear condoms. Uh-huh... He wanted to do a 3 hour gang bang and then give the guys the option to take me into "private sessions" for an hour at a time for $200 with a 70/30 split with him. Oh, and I would have to pay "John" a commission on top of that. So let's recap: the guy was talking about a gang bang with 10-15 questionable males for 8+ hours where I would end up paying two different guys nearly half my earnings. When he asked if the camera really had to be in the room, my suspicions were confirmed. It's a fine line between escorting and porn, but the difference is simple: In porn, the two people fucking are BOTH getting paid. I was so pissed after that I tucked in for the night and talked to my family until I could finally fall asleep. Here's some of what my man's research turned up. In the state of New Jersey, a real, licensed agent must register with the state for $250, carry a $1000 bond, file their schedule of fees with the New Jersey Department of Commerce, follow certain written contract requirements and all of their advertisements must have agency name & license number on them. Not only was this guy the most unprofessional asshole I've ever dealt with, he was also NOT A REAL AGENT! My man said his first clue was that he spelled "copyright" as "copyWright" on his website and used obvious fan photos of himself with people like Jenna Haze, Jules Jordan and Belladonna to try and lend himself credibility. Damn, smart is sexy.

The next morning I woke up to a text from John saying that the initial producer (see Part 1) had a cancellation and could fit me in at 7pm, but I would have to cancel the other 2 shoots I had planned for the day. He told me he preferred I do this shoot anyway because the producer gave him a 30% cut of whatever I made. When I asked him why he was suddenly changing his rates, he explained that was just what he and the producer had always agreed upon. So, he didn't care what I made, he just wanted a bigger cut for himself. I called the producer and asked if there was a better time that day we could arrange for the shoot. He said no, so I told him I couldn't make it, I had prior obligations that "John" knew about. Shortly afterward, "John" knocked on the bedroom door and asked why I had canceled the shoot. I was finally awake enough to roll off the air mattress and explain how unprofessional it was to cancel the shoots I already had booked for a last minute shoot. I could tell he was pissed, but he wasn't going to argue with me with a shoot coming up he could make money on. I was so upset by the whole thing I even considered just taking a cab to the hotel I was shooting at with Lavender later on, waiting there for the shoot and booking a room. I did not want to be in that apartment any longer than I had too, but I had planned poorly, and that morning my bank account was drained by the electric company. I decided I would go to the shoots I had planned, make the money I could, and see how things went from there.

We headed to the first shoot, and because John wold not stop texting while driving through Manhattan, he got lost several times and I ended up being an hour late. Yet another unprofessional mark. The shoot itself went just fine. I was working with Cee Jay Strokes for Monster Filmz. They were great and I would definitely work with them again. I stripped for the camera, played with some toys, and then jumped into my roll as "bitchy CEO". First I toyed my pussy a bit, but that wasn't enough, so I called in my assistant and sucked him hard before making him set up my bed. Why I had a bedroom in my office, I don't know, but I "forced" Cee Jay to endure another blowjob before making him fuck me six ways from Sunday. At the end, he tried to aim for my glasses, but my mouth and tits caught most of his load. It was hot (both figuratively, and literally... They needed AC bad!), and I had a good time. I had another shoot scheduled with them for Wednesday and that was just fine by me. Afterwards, I grabbed my cash and took off with "John" back towards Jersey for my next shoot. At this point he asked or his 15% because he didn't have cash for the tolls, and asked me if he was going to be getting 15% of the next shoot. I told him I didn't think that would be fair, considering he hadn't booked the shoot, but I would pay him for the travel to and from since he was driving me. He responded with a dissatisfied "okay", and I jumped out of the car when we got there.

Because we were late to the first shoot we were late to the second, but Lavender was extremely understanding. These people were amazing to shoot with and a lot of fun. The pics in this blog are some of the BTS that Jupa shot. I did 2 g/g scenes with Tina Tink while Jupa filmed and Lavender Rayne directed. In the first one we did oral and toys, and I got to introduce her to my magic wand (best vibrator EVER!) before she fucked me with one of my giant vibes (I really REALLY like big toys). The second one was fun too, with each of us trading turns in a strap on to fuck each other silly. Then I did a scene with a guy named Freaky that was just straight up fucking ending in my second facial of the night. Between scenes I vented to these wonderful people about what was happening with the "agent" who was little more than a low-rent pimp, and they were angry right there with me. I finally finished shooting with them around 2 am. What is it with me and 2 am? On the way back to "John's" apartment/model house, he asked me again about paying him 15% from this shoot. That he hadn't booked the shoot wasn't good enough. He said that his time was valuable, he had been waiting around for me all day and I hadn't even payed him rent. We had also gone through $20 in tolls that day, so he figured I owed him over $200. I know what you're thinking, and does sound more like a pimp trying to run his game than an agent. I was so pissed at this point I couldn't even speak correctly, so I just told him I was tired and we would figure it out in the morning. He also mentioned that the original producer had called him again to schedule another last minute scene the next day at 7pm and it would again require I cancel the shoot I already had scheduled. I told him I was not interested and he told me "don't worry about it, you'll be fine" and went ahead and scheduled it anyway.

When we got back to the apartment, I called my man and vented some more, and then called Lavender to see if she could pick me up in the morning. I did not want to be there anymore. She said she definitely would, and to call her in the morning. I finally fell asleep at 5am and woke up two hours later hoping that "John" would be asleep so I could call Lavender to pick me up. He had apparently been up all night and was sitting in a chair right next to the front door on his computer, so there was no way I could leave unnoticed. I called Lavender anyway, and she came over to get me. I told "John" I was going out for a quick shoot and would text him later. He said it seemed to him like I was leaving and had no plans of coming back. Apparently, the week before he had had two models do the same thing to him, say they were going on shoots and just never come back. Hmm... If other models have done this to you already, maybe there is something wrong with your company.

After I left, I texted him and told him I wasn't coming back. I know, it's shady, but I felt it was what I had to do to get out in one piece. I asked what his license number was in NJ for his agency and he said he had one in Illinois (Bullshit! Turns out, in the 21st century, looking up that kind of lie is easy because of this thing called, "the internet"!), he just didn't have one for New Jersey yet. SOOOO NOT HOW THAT WORKS! See, the laws for agents change from state to state, and one license isn't necessarily good anywhere else. He claimed I had run off without paying him money I owed him (I payed him 15% of the shoot he got me + $15 for the 6 mile ride to my second shoot) and he was going to ruin my career. I ended up calling Mike at Monster Filmz to explain why I would not be there that day. I also sent an email to the original producer that "John" had failed to book solid with and told him I was sorry for getting him caught in the middle, and if he wanted to work with me next time I was out there than I would gladly schedule something directly with him.

I spent the day on set with Lavender and her posse, had a wonderful dinner with them, and spent the night on her couch. It was the only night I slept peacefully. She is a saint and I am deeply indebted to her for helping me out! The next day, she drove me to the airport, I got on my plane and flew back home. Home sweet home. It was such a relief to be back where I belonged.

So, the moral of this cautionary tale to all new female porn talent out there: NEVER sign on with an agent without checking his references and finding out if he is licensed (if he's supposed to be) in the state he's operating in. A good agent is supposed to line up work for you and take care of legal and financial negotiations. A good agent will look out for you, because a safe and happy you is good for business. Always have work scheduled before you buy a ticket to anywhere and always have a backup plan. These are all things that I should have done and I am kicking myself for learning that the hard way. I've only been in this business for five months, and this was a learning experience for sure. There are far too many "agents" out there who will take advantage of new talent, from wannabe pimps like I ran into, to the shysters who prey on teen girls at malls just to sell them overpriced head shots. There will always be assholes out there who will walk all over others who don't know better. No matter what kind of talent you are, be it porn or something mainstream, remember that you are always in charge and you should never give in to bullying. Never forget that, because I certainly won't.

XOXO
Clayra Beau

P.S. Any girl who needs info, thinks they might be in a similar situation, or needs to compare details to see if they are about to sign on with a guy who sounds similar to this, don't hesitate to drop me a line. Someone looked out for me, the least I can do is return the karma.
(All images in this post belong to Jupa Productions, LLC)

The Good, The Bad, and the Horny: A Cautionary Tale, to say the least... (Part 1)

2010-04-02T20:51:00.000-07:00

As many of you know I just returned from a trip out to New Jersey. It was my first trip out to the East Coast. I had been pondering taking the trip for some time, but had never really made the plans until a couple weeks ago when I responded to an ad from someone looking to hire models. It turned out that this particular "producer" was actually a new "agent" in NJ looking for new models. The quotes mean that I probably should have known better, but hindsight is 20/20.

We talked several times about me flying to the New York area. I told him that I have had too many problems with booking flights for work that turns out to not be solid and then spending time in a location just sitting waiting for other work to materialize because an agent failed to look for other work, finally telling me the week before the trip that he needed a flight confirmation number before he could do his job. I understand that there is a high flake factor in this industry, but I have never no-showed or even been late to a shoot that was booked, and I can't afford to spend hundreds of dollars of plane tickets to sit around and not make money. This agent, let's call him "John", told me that it would not be a problem. He told me I could stay at one of his model houses (notice the plural) and he would drive me around to whatever shoots I needed to go to. I told him I planned on coming out there from 3/28 - 4/1 and to try to get work for those days. On 3/18, over a week before my trip, "John" and I spoke with an actual producer who told us that he would gladly book me for a couple gagging BJ/rough sex scenes that for which I would earn upwards of $2000 over two of the three day's I would be there, and that he would finalize with "John" later. "John" told me he would let me know the details when he had them. Serves me right for not listening to Fox Mulder and trusting someone. I continued to call John for a few days, asking him for information about the shoot. He kept telling me he didn't know anything yet, but he kept asking if I did escort work. It's a question I had been asked before so it really didn't strike me as odd at the time. When I told him no he said that that was making it really hard for him to find work for me, and he lays on the pressure, telling me that all the girls did it so I should do it and that it was the best way he could guarantee me work. After several days of badgering him for confirmation on the two shoots, he finally tells me he was waiting to confirm them because I hadn't sent him my flight confirmation number. Grrrr...

The Friday before I was to get on my plane, John called me and said that he couldn't get the booking we had discussed because the company was booked up until April 1st. With all the pressure "John" had been putting on trying to convince me to escort, I was suspicious, so I called the producer myself. I had previously spoken with him a few months ago about setting up work, so I kind of knew him, but he informed me that my "agent" had failed to confirm the dates in a timely manner so he had booked someone else. Apparently, "John" had not called to try and finalize our booking until that day. So, even though we had spoken to the producer over a week before, and all "John" had to do was confirm dates and times, he had not called to finalize the shoot until the last minute. Now I had a non-refundable plane ticket (I fly cheap, what can I say) to a place where I had no work lined up. Excellent. I called "John" back and told him that I would be coming out anyway and to let me know if he found anything. At first he told me not to do that, that I should simply reschedule my flight so that I could stay until the 6th or 7th. When I pointed out that he was asking me to stay there during Easter, he told me I should reschedule my flight until after Easter because then he could find me some work for sure, unless I would agree to escort of course. I was royally pissed at "John" by this point, but I had little other option than to go out and search my ass off because I could not change my flight and even a small chance at making headway on my bills is better than no chance at all. I contacted a girlfriend of mine who lives in New York, Kendra Star, and asked if she had any porn contacts in NY or NJ. Kendra is a sweetheart, and we've both had luck with the same, very REAL agent in LA, Valley Babes. She referred me to JDEVIL Productions, Jupa Productions, Backout Video, and a few others. It was a frantic rush to try to make as many contacts as I could so that I could at least make back the cost of my plane ticket, but everyone was busy and the outlook was rather grim. After all, we're talking about trying to book work on only two days notice.

My flight out of Milwaukee was scheduled to leave at 4:30 on Sunday and arrive in Newark at 7:30pm. I called "John" to confirm my ride to the "model house" and he tells me that the driver can't get there till 9:30, so it's already looking like a wonderful trip at this point. Then my plane was delayed an hour at the airport, and then another hour while we were waiting on the runway. Thankfully, the stewardess was amazingly nice and gave everyone drinks and cookies to our heart's content, which, as a fan of chocolate, really helped. I called "John" and told him about my delay and that I would be landing 2 hours late, so I would be getting there when his driver would. When I arrived at Newark at 9:30, I called "John" to let him and his drive know what terminal I was at, and he informs me that he didn't have a car to pick me up, and it would be another hour before the driver could come pick me up. Okay fine, I'll wait an hour. After an hour and a half I was still waiting. 2, 3, 4, 5 hours later I sat there waiting. I continued to text and call "John" and all he could say was that "the driver was on his way and he should be there soon". He refused to give me the address to the model house and during the 1:00AM call, he tells me that it just dawned on him that maybe he should have called me a cab. He says that that would be a waste now, however, because the driver would finally be back with the car any minute and "John" would come pick me up himself. At this point I was ready to sit in the airport until the ticketing desk opened again and see if there was away that I could just fly home. Finally, at 2 in the morning, "John" got there to pick me up. We stopped on the way at a McDonald's to get some food. Now I would think after making someone wait at the airport for 5 hours, the least you could do was buy them dinner. Nope. Not even a thought that crossed his mind. Apparently my mother raise me better.

When we finally got back to the "model house" (which turned out to be his apartment, surprise!) we sat down and started talking about business stuff. He had apparently managed to get me some work for Tuesday and Wednesday, shoots that paid $300 each, and he was working on getting me more. He then started talking about rates for his commission. I talked him down from the 20% he insisted he was entitled to, but he agreed only because he didn't have a lot of work planned. He also said he usually charges talent $250 for staying in the "model house", but he'd cut me a break because I wasn't staying for a whole week. Then he tells me wants to shoot a video for his own website: a BJ with a facial. When I asked what the pay would be, He told me that he would do it as "content trade" for staying in the house. For those not in the know, content trade is what happens when two porn stars agree to work together for an equal share of the content, to do with as they see fit. This guy just wanted a BJ in exchange for lodging, plain and simple. It was late, I was already pissed and I didn't want to fight with the guy who was letting me stay at his place instead of the airport. I found my room, cuddled up on the air mattress (only thing in the room) and passed out. I was so tired, I just didn't want to deal with it all. (Next: A pimp, some porn, and I meet the best people when I'm naked!)

Sunny Los Angeles.

2010-03-16T19:48:00.000-07:00

So I have been in LA for 3 days now and it has been a fairly fun trip. I had a glory hole shoot yesterday at 9am. For those of you that do not know what a glory hole is, or know and have managed to forget, it is a scene in which a hot chic, me, wonders into a dirty bathroom stall and someone (preplanned male talent) sticks his cock through a hole in the wall for a BJ and some fucking. A strange concept all around, considering I will pass by a gas station if it looks like there is a chance that the bathroom may be gross let alone fuck anyone in one but whatever. I guess whatever floats your boat. So I worked with an actor named Hooks and had a great time. Trying to jerk some of through a hole in the wall, not as easy as it would seem. The money shot gains hilarity when all you hear is a Darth Vader-esque muffled voice going"oh yeah, just like that." oh how I enjoy the adventures of my job.

Before I came out to LA I did a shoot with a company called dreamflicks.net. They take fan created scripts and create films for them to purchase. The first scene we worked on was a spanking scene in which I was a very strict foster mom giving my newest kids a spanking for stealing from the mall. It was a ton of fun to spank some really hot woman. After that I dressed up as Bat Babe and gave CPR to my other costars. Apparently this is an emerging fetish. It's new to me but if you like it that's up to you. At one point I was making out with my adorable costar Misty and then she passes out and I have to give her CPR. After she passed out I pause and looked straight at the camera and in all sorts of cheesy glory say " Oh no. It appears she has passed out from my hotness." Holy funniness Batman. So yeah I've been having a lot of fun lately.

After my shoot yesterday I finished the Great Fables Crossover. If you haven't checked out Fables before then you need to. It is an awesome series so check it out. After finishing that I went out for a dreamwalk. It is a new app on my iPhone in which I can roam around the city and get prizes by being in certain GPS locations. I won Movie tickets and I am working on winning a pair of Levi Jeans. It was a great way to roam around Hollywood Boulevard with out blending in with the rest of the tourist masses taking pictures of sidewalk stars and wax statues. Another thing I would suggest checking out, especially if you live in a large city. It's a lot of fun.

I also tried to create a red Magic deck but every web deck I see is made up of cards I don't have. I have all WorldWake cards so people playing with older cards really don't help me. I guess I am just too lazy to read a million forums and guides on how to make a deck myself but I am really tired of getting the crapped kicked out of my prefab deck. Conundrum. If anyone has any advice, please let me know.

Now I am getting ready to watch another new episode of Lost. Hopefully it will answer more questions than it raises. I am totally addicted so we'll see. So goodnight for now and I will talk to you all very soon.

XOXO
Clayra Beau

Gearing up to go to LA

2010-03-11T09:36:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone,

This week has been a bit chaotic getting ready to make my 4th trip out to LA. I go out there about twice a month to shoot adult videos and to escape the cold tundra. this trip is sure to bring in some work and I am rather excited. I also plan to spend a bit of my time do Dream walks. The is a new app on my I phone where you can basically go a scavenger hunt around he city looking for instant prizes or gathering multiple clues to get a bigger prize. I love scavenger hunts so this should be a lot of fun

I will be back from LA on the 19th and then I plan to fly out to LA on the 28th of MArch I don't plan to be out there very long but I should be able to get some more work. yeah work. I've always wanted to travel but I never knew it would be because of this career.

I also want to thank eveyone who is following me on twitter. I am close to 1000 followers and growing everyday. You guys help me get the word out that I am going to be in LA. I hope to meet up with a couple of you while I am there. Thanks, you guys rock.

Otherwise all is good and i hope to talk to you all again very soon.

XOXO

Clayra Beau

Finally, A New Blog.

2010-02-25T21:40:00.000-08:00

Finally, I have my compy back. Right after I returned from LA last Friday I discovered that the graphics card on my computer was dead so I had to take it to the Apple store and have it repaired. Now I have it back and can write again! Yay! So this may run a little long as I cover my adventures in LA and the week that followed.

The flight to LA was uneventful and it was wonderful to be out of the snow and back in the sunshine. Unfortunately as I putting my squirmy daughter into my car on the way to the airport, I cracked my already chapped lip open on the door and that just looked ghastly and I was unable to do any work during my week in LA. That didn't stop me from having fun. I saw a few of LA's sights. My Fiance, daughter and a friend of ours went out to dinner a couple of times. First to a wonderful Greek diner called the Firehouse. Great food, check it out, but you may have to park on a side street. Like most places in LA, there is very little parking. Later in the week we went to Norm's and then up to the Griffith Observatory. The view of the city was amazing. We went at night and got to see the city lights as they sprawled out as far as the eye could see. Breathtaking. The observatory itself is a total work of art. From the way the building is constructed to the paintings inside to the scale model of the solar system in the front courtyard, everything comes together as one work. I have always been a huge fan of astronomy so this was a big thrill for me. On Thursday we went to a gallery showing of the art of Dave McKean, cover artist for Sandman and several other great comics that you should check out. The paintings and prints were an ingenious mix of collage and paint that just blows your mind away. He themed the show on German Expressionistic Cinema. It was just wonderful to see the way that McKean takes a familiar image and reinterprets it in a way that makes you see it completely differently. There is one piece based on the original Nosferatu, the scene where Nosferatu is leaning over the woman sleeping, where he uses this Dali-esque distortion and deep shadows to emulate the true darkness of the film in one painting. So freaking cool.

I also spent a day roaming around LA doing go sees with Valley Babes' Sophie Dee, Sierra Skye, Kendra Star and Jay Lowe. For those of you who don't know what a go see is, it's where a model or models go see a number of producers and directors so that they can meet face to face. In a business where a lot of things are done via email it is nice to meet people one on one. It was a ton of fun to ride around with the girls all day, rolling into producers' offices, getting naked and then jumping in the car and doing it all again. Oh I didn't mention the naked part? Part of meeting people in person is that they want to get a naked photo of you for their records. Just a quick snapshot of what you really look like without the tricks of lighting and the ever present Photoshop. I did get to meet the folks at Hustler, Jules Jordan and several other wonderful producers and got an inside snoop on some of their upcoming projects. Hopefully meeting everyone will get me a bunch of new work when I get back out to LA in March.

After we got home, we unpacked the computer to find the graphics cards not working. *Pout* So I set my daughter to bed and planned on a quiet night of knitting or comic book reading or sex. Unfortunately, my daughter woke up around 11pm she would not stop screaming and had to be rushed to the ER where they diagnosed a double ear infection and croup. Fun! The next day, when I went to go get her prescription from Walgreen's the car broke down. Thankfully we have a bit of money saved up from tax returns and shoots, so the rental car was not an issue. The car and computer are back now and my daughter is back to being her adorably messy, noisy self. Thank you all for your wonderful get well wishes!

My Fiance and I have begun to watch the first part of season one of Flash Forward. If you enjoy Lost, Alias or Fringe, you will love this show. I was hooked after the first episode. Solid cast, interesting concept and a hell of a lot of what-the-fuck moments. Check it out.

I also just spent about 2 hours organizing a box of World Wake Magic cards. Dude, there are so many good cards here I really don't know where to start in putting a new deck together. We literally have all but 12 of the World Wake cards. This is my first time constructing a deck from scratch. Yes, there are still some things I am a virgin at. So, if you have any suggestions send them my way.

So now that you know what has been going on in my life I am going to watch my fiance play his new game, Uncharted 2: Among Thieves. Any game that starts with you almost falling to your death is a win in my book. Goodnight all. Talk to you soon.

XOXO
Clayra Beau

Y: The Last Man and Stuff...

2010-02-09T20:44:00.000-08:00

Today I got snowed in. Living where I live, it happens pretty often. So I decided to catch up on a little bit of reading. I finished reading the first 3 trades of Y: The Last Man. Yes it's a comic book. If you don't believe me you obviously missed the Nerd Girl part of my blog title. Anyway, I really liked it. I suppose I have been spoiled in the comics that I have read. Like only drinking the best tequila from the get go and then wondering how people can stomach the cheap shit. Y: The Last Man, if you haven't read it, is about what the world would be like if all of the men were mysteriously wiped out in 1 day and there was only 1 man left. It poses some interesting questions, like what ado we really need men for? Why is there only one man left? Are women really just catty bitches that would self destruct in a matter of days? It's odd but that argument reminds me of a group of male artists (see: Futurism), around the time of women's suffrage in the early 20th century, supported woman voting not because they thought women should have a fair voice, but because they were anarchists and believed that if women got the vote they would vote for stupid, petty things and the world would unravel in a matter of years. Anyway, there is a fair amount of man hating in the book. Women saying its a blessing that they oppressive men are gone, that kind of thing, but there are also a lot of the women who miss men. There is even a conversation about how several of the great bands of history are gone. The Rolling Stones, U2, The Who, The Eels and REM. The story is wonderfully entertaining and deep. It contains themes of a mature nature. It's not only that people get naked and say fuck (yes you can say fuck in a comic book), but it includes jokes that only a person with a mature mind can get. Case in point, when speaking to his bodyguard, Yorick asks if her can call her Al. Come on what Spider-Man loving 13-year-old is gonna get that joke? What I wonder is how the extinction of man would affect porn. In the story, there is no electricity but strip clubs were probably still rocking hard. Would there be a market for strippers in a male-less world? I know there are plenty of lesbians out there, but I don't know. It just seems weird. The men we make porn for are just as important in the porn equation as the people who star in it. I still have a bunch of individual issues to read but I must say I am totally hooked, and no not just by Yorick's cute little monkey. :)

I also finished 3 trades of House of Mystery. I like Fables, and a number of people who helped create that series made House of Mystery with the same company, Vertigo. It is a fun mix of sci-fi, fantasy, mystery and mythology. I don't really know how to explain it. It's like trying to explain 5 seasons of Lost to someone who's only seen the premiere of season 6. All I can really say is I am eager to read more and you should pick it up.

Speaking of Lost, I watched the new episode today and was irritated with how short it seemed. Maybe it's because I was watching 4-6 episodes a day a couple of weeks ago. Maybe it just seems like very little happened in the episode. I don't want to ruin it for those of you that haven't seen it yet, but I suppose its not the best Lost episodes ever. Still worth watching.

So the snow is till coming down pretty hard and I think I am going to cuddle up with a cup of chai latte and some more comics and call it a night. Tomorrow I have fem dom homework to do: watching videos, tying up balls and all that. I will definitely let you know how that goes. :)

XOXO
Clayra Beau

Home Again

2010-02-06T22:39:00.000-08:00

AAAAhhh. It feels so wonderful to be home again. To sleep in my own bed. To watch my own TV. To eat food that I cooked. Tonight I made asada tacos for dinner and caught up on Project Runway. As someone who designs and creates clothing in her spare time, I find the show fascinating to watch. I doubt, at this point I have the talent to go on the show but I do like watching what the other designers are doing. It also fills the drama requirement for my day. Catty designers and models can be so funny to watch. I am rooting for Anthony this season but everyone I root for seems to get knocked off halfway through, so we will see.

I received a number of photos today from my shoot with Marc Goldstein at The Red Chair. I hope you like them! The shoot ran very late into the night so I don't know that I look my best in the photos, but I think that we still managed to pull off some great images. Maybe I shouldn't be so self-deprecating, but you tell me. I hope you enjoy them as well.

Here at home, I am preparing for Valentine's Day. I am generally jaded about the holiday, but I think it can be really nice to celebrate sometimes. I just don't enjoy the idea that the affection you have for someone hinges entirely on the perfection of 1 day. Yes, it is nice to show someone that you love them, but you should do that everyday. I don't know. I have never been one to ask for pretty jewels or lots of chocolates. I have 1 necklace I have been wearing since last Christmas and I rarely change things up. Although I love chocolate I think it would mostly sit there after I ate the few in the box that I like. I suppose I would just like a kiss, an I love you and maybe a single rose. I saw a bouquet once that I thought was awesome. It was a dozen daisies with 1 rose in the middle. seemed to represent a lot to me. Anyway. I thought it was sweet and would love to get something like that. I am planning on doing dinner with my honey and getting a few special gifts for him, which I can't describe here because he will definitely read this. It should be a good day but I love him just as much every other day as I do on February 14th and that should be the point of it all I think.

I am also getting ready for my return trip to LA. I will be back on the west coast on the 14th and then leaving again on the 19th. Hopefully I can get some work with a couple of the contacts that I made the last time I was out there. My original agency, Goldstar Modeling, has failed to get me any work so far. So, with a load of help from my fiance, I am trying to get as much work on my own as I can. I plan to contact Rick Garcia, Jim Camp, Sean Micheals and several others to see if the new girl can manage to get a few more scenes in this month.

Before I leave however I have a Fem Dom shoot coming up with the people at bestfemdomvideo.com. I have been doing a bit of research on the dominatrix lifestyle and what to say and not to say. It is a very interesting lifestyle, but definitely not for me. I think that I get the appeal for it in video but I don't think I could be in a relationship where this is the norm. There was one part I read about forcing guys to eat sperm ice cubes and making them cum on their food before they eat it, and that almost turned my stomach. Still, I think that flogging someone on camera and making them feel like a dirty, pathetic whore is something I can do no problem! I will definitely let you all know how that goes when it is all said and done. Should be very interesting.

So I am going to get back to work making contacts for a little bit and then I think I will try to whip my man at Magic. Him has a flying deck and I am playing a green blue simic mutology deck, so he usually kicks my butt very quickly, but if I literally play my cards right, I may be able to get him. We will see. Talk to you all soon!

Clayra Beau

A Very Full Day

2010-02-04T23:56:00.000-08:00

Since my last post I have been very busy. At around 7:30 last night I received a call from Marc Goldstein from , theredchair.net saying that he had a model leave a shoot midway because of personal issues and he needed a replacement. Since I have been looking forward to shooting with Marc, I jumped at the chance. After a quick shower and shave I made my way to West Hollywood and shot with Marc for close to 4 hours. It was a lot of fun and I hope to have some pics up very soon. I got back to my hotel after 1am. I was glad to be back with my honey and we had some of the best sex I have ever had. No matter how much porn you shoot there is absolutely nothing that can replace the feeling of having sex with someone you truly love. It was so good I had no other option than to simply pass out afterward.

This morning I woke up bright and early to head down to my DP shoot. I started doing makeup at 10am and after 2 hours of brushes, powders and hairspray I was ready to go. Unfortunately, one of the actors I was working with did not have his AIM results back from the lab yet. So we all took a 2 hour lunch break while we waited for his results to come in. When they did, we dove head long into the scene. My costars, Rico Strong and Sean Michaels were amazing to work with. I'll admit I was a bit nervous about taking that much dick at the same time but they were very gentle and patient with me, which worked so well. I can't wait to see the video when it is all done. Sean Michaels even got my number for the next time I am in town so that we can get together and do a scene. Very cool.

Now that I had another check in my hands I headed to the bank. Then my wonderful fiance and I went out for some sushi in a sort of celebration of being able to make a living. I am a big fan of sushi but I rarely have the money to enjoy it. I always feel guilty spending more than I need to. We went to Chiba's in Los Angeles. The fish was the best I've ever had and the service was really nice as well. I had a wonderful time. The perfect celebration if you ask me.

Now I am back in my hotel room just chilling out after a long day. I just finished the first volume of House of Mystery by Bill Willingham and others. It is a very interesting book full of stories with touches of mystery, doom and gloom. If you like Fables then you will probably like this. I am on the second book now and loving it as well. I will have to let you all know how it goes. Right now, however, I am going to put the computer and the rest of the world to bed and enjoy my fiance once again before I pass into dream land for a while. We have to be up bright and early tomorrow to catch our plane back home. So, here's to a full day and hopefully a wonderful flight home, and to you for listening to my adventures.

XOXO
Clayra Beau

A Day at The Beach

2010-02-03T17:21:00.000-08:00

Today I had no shoots scheduled so my fiance and I decided to go out to breakfast and then see the Santa Monica Pier. With a steak and egg burrito in my tummy and a game of Magic under my belt (I lost), we set out on the 405 to see the ocean. The last time I saw the ocean I was in the 6th grade in the Gulf of Mexico. Finding parking was an interesting adventure all in itself. The signs for parking are set in odd places and we kept making wrong turns. Once we found parking, the pier was actually quite fun. It was a warm, sunny day and the waves were crashing on the beach nearby. My fiance has never seen the ocean and I think it was a real treat for him. We even got our feet wet a little. The water was freezing, but what can you expect in February.

On the way back to the hotel I kept getting call after call from people interested in working with me. I even started to lay out plans for an interesting art exhibit/photoshoot called "Naughty Knits" with a photographer out of Madison, Wisconsin. His initial concept sprung from the idea of how ridiculous BDSM gear can look sometimes. Like, a dude in a gas mask always looks a little silly to me. So, he is having some people knit some BDSM accessories, myself included and I will be making a knit corset. Then we will be taking some photos with me and a couple of other models in the gear. I contacted another photographer I know back home who owns his own studio to see if it would be possible to do an art show with the accessories and pics when we are all done. He suggested that we do a photoshoot/workshop with the gear and some more models for different photographers to be able to come in and get some pics of the gear in action. Sounds like a fun project and I will definitely keep you posted as things develop.

I also got an update on my shoot for tomorrow with Jim Camp. I will be doing a DP scene with Rico Strong and Sean Michaels. I am a little nervous about handling that much cock at one time but I am sure I'll be okay once I get into it. I think It's for Bang Bros or Blacks on Blonds, so hopefully it will be a shoot that leads me to more work, like a snowball rolling downhill. I will let you know how that all turns out when I am done. I leave LA in a day and a half so hopefully I will have some more great adventures to share with you before I head home and prepare for my Fem Dom shoot in Chicago!

Fast Cars and Sexy Girls...

2010-01-31T22:01:00.000-08:00

Me and Holly
So I did a shoot today for Highspeed Magazine with DJ Foothill, Rick Garcia and a number of models. It was a ton of fun! After navigating the I-5, missing my exit and eventually finding the location, I sat down for makeup with Christi Bell. She is absolutely wonderful! We rocked out to some Kings of Leon and Smashing Pumpkins while she beautified me. Contrary to popular belief and rampant rumor, I am not the most gorgeous in the morning. She gave me some dark, smoky eyes and pale pink lips. I even got to wear my first pair of fake eyelashes! After a bit of teasing and a lot of hairspray she put my hair into a rocking bump-up do. I made a quick change into a lacy black bra and garter set and got to work.

The first car I shot with was a tricked out orange truck. Okay you got me. I have no clue what kind of truck it was, but it was pretty hot and it even had a bar in the back seat. After that, I took some photos with the other girls, Holly Hollywood, Lya Pink, Carina Crash and Kaylynn. We did some great dominatrix like poses. Half way through the shoot an LAPD K-9 unit rolled up. Doing the work we do we all got a little nervous. We quickly discovered all he wanted was to take some photos of his own. Click to see a pic Rick took :) With a little urging we even got him to let the dog take some photos with us. It was so much fun. We even had some of the bikers come by and do a burn out for us so we could have smoke in the photo. Then Holly and I posed on the bikes. These were really hot rides and I was excited to pose with them! Then, to wrap up the shoot I did some very hot nude poses with Kaylynn. She was such a sweety she even let me cuddle with her inside her bathrobe. It was cold today, and even coming from the Great White North as I do, when you're nearly naked, windy with temps in the low 50's is C-O-L-D!

The only down side to the day, beside the cold, was the fact that one of the drivers decided it would be a cool idea to bring his 4-year-old son to the shoot. I understand that you want to involve your kids in what you do and get them into what you are into, but when naked chicks are involved, its just not cool. And we were topless, if not naked, most of the day. I suppose Kevin Smith said it best, "when it comes to sex, no munchkins and no blumpkins". This is Adult work for a reason. I'm just saying. Rant over.

Overall the shoot was a blast. All of the girls were really sweet and fun. I look forward to working with all of them again.

Besides being a porn actress, I am also the most forgetful person on the planet. This morning I went into a wild frenzy when I discovered that I could not find my ID. I couldn't even remember where I possibly could have lost it. In this industry you need to have 2 forms of ID to do any work and with out that I get the feeling I am totally screwed in the wrong way. According to the regulations for I-9 forms I have more than enough alternate IDs for the IRS, but it is really the director's prerogative as an I-9 is not the same as a 2257. So, wish me luck tomorrow in attempting to get my adult shoot on with Byron Long and Wesley Pipes off. I'll be honest, I'm a little nervous because these dudes are HUUUUGE! I will definitely let you know how it goes. :) Fingers crossed.

2010-01-31T09:38:00.000-08:00

Here I sit. In a hotel room just north of Los Angeles. My backpack sits on the bed next to me, teeming with panties, bras and the sexiest lingerie I own. In less than a half an hour I will be driving down the I-5 towards my first photoshoot in LA. It all seems so surreal right now. Like some graphic novel playing out before my eyes. But this is not the fictitious story of some super-heroine saving lives and leaping tall buildings. No, this is reality... My reality. My Adventures in Porn Land.

I landed yesterday at LAX after a tedious 4 hour flight from MKE. After navigating through the masses to baggage claim, renting a car, and checking in to my hotel, I took a moment to relax and unwind. This wound up becoming a 4 hour nap. When I woke up I started tweeting with several people about the fact that I'm out in LA, hoping the more people that know I'm here, the more work I'll get. DJ from Highspeed Magazine was looking to shoot girls, so I hit him up. He called me and we started chatting about having me join Holly Hollywood, Avy Scott, and Kaylynn the next day. So, today, I'm modeling with a classic car. Sexy girls and classic cars are always a sure hit in my book! After the call, I had a bite to eat and streamed some Xena: Warrior Princess from my Netflix. I fell asleep before the episode was over. Not that I dislike Xena, I really love the show actually, but i was just that tired. I don't recover from plane rides well.

Eventually this morning came and I started getting ready for the shoot. I jumped in the shower and shaved. I haven't had any work in the last week so I was starting to look a little like a Wookie. Thankfully hair and makeup will be done by a professional on set so i don't have to worry about that. I packed my bag and started to type my first blog.

Blogging is a new thing to me. Sure I've written updates on my Myspace page, but having a page entirely dedicated to chronicling the things I am doing in my life is a whole new experience for me. I would like to give everyone a window in to the events that unfold on my adventures through porn land as I pick up more work, meet new people and experience things I've never done. Most people will never be porn stars and think we have some glamorous, party filled life. I think I'm a pretty normal nerd girl who just happens to get laid for a living.

I have to run to my shoot now but I will be back with new adventures soon. I hope to read some of the House of Mysteries graphic novels when I get back to the hotel and hopefully play a game of Magic with my man. I will have to let you know how it goes. So, join me on my adventures. I assure you it will be an interesting ride. :)

xoxo
Clayra Beau