Clayra Beau

Clayra Beau
BAT BABE!

Monday, December 6, 2010

A Hard City Indeed.

As many of you know I just returned from a trip out to The Big Apple. It has been hectic with the Thanksgiving holiday and I finally have time to finish telling the story of my adventures there.  Let me preface by saying that 90% of the trip was wonderful. There were some rough parts but we will get to that.

I landed at JFK around 6pm on Tuesday evening and in true Clayra style I hit the bricks running. I went straight from the airport to my first shoot with SHM Productions for their site undressedangels.com. It was a very laid back solo scene. I really hit it off with the people there and I think I have made from friends for life. How can I not love someone who geeks out about my plans to make a crochet Cthulu hat?  After the shoot the photographer rode with me to Times Square. I had never been on a train in NYC so that was pretty damn cool. When I got back to the place I was staying I was starving and was amazed that in NYC you can order sushi for delivery at midnight. Sushi for the win!

The next morning I had to take the train out to New Jersey and do a shoot in Philadelphia with Blue Moon Productions. On my way to the train station I saw a lot of tagging on walls and garage doors but I had to stop and snap a pic of pedobear sprayed on an overheard door.  My first shoot in Philly was a BJ scene. Not a big deal you say? Yeah, it was an hour and a half long BJ! My jaw hurts just thinking about it. By the by, a bit of advice to anyone who ever wants a girl to go down there, shave your balls. Hairy, fuzzy or stubbly balls are a girls worst enemy when she is rubbing her face there. Just think about whether you would want to rub your face on that before you get out of the shower everyday. Just something to keep in mind. The next scene in Philly was for a site with the premise that I am a high schooler auditioning to be on an amateur adult video site. Throughout this 'audition' I change into several different outfits from a cute cheerleader to a Christmas teddy and finally a very clingy naughty nurse outfit. It was an interesting shoot to say the least.

I got back to the City at about 8pm and went out for more sushi. There is something very fulfilling about a spicy tuna roll that just doesn't compare to anything else.  After dinner I got dolled up and headed off to my next shoot. It was also in Manhattan so I didn't have to travel far to get there. I was shooting with a great guy named Walter and the shoot was supposed to be a B/G scene with some pretty girl photos and take maybe 2 hours. It took almost 4 hours because I got into a fight with him. Nothing horrible but when you state that the X-Men are not only cooler than Batman but the entire DC Universe, I have to geek smack you back into place. then the whole Marvel vs. DC argument started. " Do you think that Batman could really kick the Hulk's ass?" "Hello he took down Superman. I think he can handle the Hulk." :)  I also had to revoke his nerd card for never having read a single Vertigo comic or knowing who Alan Moore was. Tisk tisk. So by the time I finished defending Batman's honor I got home and fell straight to sleep with visions of Harley Quinn choking out Jubilee running through my head.

Thursday my day started a little bit later. Mike from Monsterfilmz picked me up at 10am. We went over to a hotel clearly meant for partying to film a scene with Johnny Slim. We had to change rooms 3 times because all of the rooms had mirrors on the ceiling and walls and that just doesn't work for filming.  And there was even a bottle opener already mounted on the wall next to the door. So shooting porn here was probably not an odd thing for this hotel.  Johnny was awesome to work with. we joked around a lot and shot the shit and made a really awesome scene. After that was done Mike and I headed up to the Ravel in Queens to do a G/G scene with Indigo. Talk about a sexy women. I do love a woman with tats but she had a 42 on her back and a Gonzo tat on her rib and I was hooked. Definitely a fun and very hot scene. Thanks to Indigo for coming on such short notice.


Then the shit started. I was headed to a shoot with Facial Abuse. I had done my research and looked at the site. It look pretty damn rough but I was reassured it would be fine. Because of traffic I got there a little late. After I got my makeup done and got dressed everything was put on hold while we waited for the camera guy to show up. In that time I signed my contract and took some photos on set. Just before we started shooting I had to ask the producer to show me the male talents STD tests before we started which was met with some sighing and the tests. Shady for sure. At that point I just wanted to get done. when the camera guy finally arrived at midnight we started shooting. My plan was to try and get through as much of the scene as possible before taking a break. The fewer breaks, the sooner I could get a burger and pass out. Once we started I didn't even make it for 2 minutes before I had to stop. I started on my knees with the male talent literally shoving their cocks down my throat until I gagged an couldn't breath. I had to break because I was ready to pass out. when we started again it was no easier. I was still on my knees an the guys were so aggressive that at one point I literally had to stand up and push with all of my strength to get off of him. there is no point in having a safe word when you can't talk. I was clawing at their legs and slapping their thighs and they still wouldn't let up.  So I took another breather and now I had 5 minutes of footage under my belt.  After my break one of the guys picked me up and threw me over his shoulder and shoved me on him again. Then they pulled me off by my hair and smacked me in the face so hard it gave me a bloody nose. they didn't even notice that I was bleeding until they threw me onto the couch and started throat fucking me while my head hung off the couch. the guy jumped off and was like dude you have a bloody nose! That will look great on camera! I took another break and cleaned up my face and had some water. As I was sitting on the couch I noticed that I was having trouble seeing straight. One eye was looking one way and the other looked straight. So not cool. We started again with me leaning off the couch again and again I had to shove the guys off of me with all my might to be able to breath. I even threw myself on the floor to get away and they picked me back up, dropped me on the couch and kept going. finally I called for a break and took off for the dressing room. I was so done being abused. I was literally shaking and my brain was no longer in the just get through the
scene mode. It was very fight or flight and I could not go on anymore. After a quick call home and a cigarette, some people tried to comfort me and get me to finish the scene. I'm sorry but there was no amount anyone could pay me at this point to keep me going. After another minute to gather myself I walked back on set and said I was tapping out. They told me that they had about enough footage that they could sell it if they got the popshot so I sat on the floor and finished the scene. For all of that they paid me $200. I packed up my clothes and headed back to the city. I was so shook up I was crying on the way home too. I literally could not even swallow my soda. Those are the facts take them as you like.  when I got back to NYC at 4am I was so exhausted I ate 4 Sun chips and fell asleep.

The next morning I was crazy sore and was still having trouble swallowing but I wanted to have some better memories to take home so I walked around the fashion district with a friend of mine. It was great to see some of the city before I let and went back to Wisconsin. Of course I had to deal with Delta being retarded on the way back but after the night before, it was all peaches and cream.

The stuff that happened to me should never happen to anyone so I would suggest a boycott of this site. With my shoot with Kink I knew I had people there that actually had my back and were doing it all for show. FA is all about hurting women as much as they can and getting away with it. One of the clauses in their contracts says that you can not come back to them for any physical or emotional damages caused during you shoot. Therefore they could literally fuck a girl up for life and she can do nothing about it. It's a typical clause but they really use it to their advantage.

I came home to my family and wonderful fans curious to know how it went. I posted several updates about what happened but that is the full story. After that I really needed to do something a bit calmer so I did a local workshop with some local photographers. It was a laid back Christmas shoot just west of Milwaukee. It felt really great to be more in control of my environment and what was going on around me. The pics turned out great even though I was really worried about the bruising on my eyes. Yay for sexy Christmas!

Thank you to everyone for your support and letting me tell me story.  Have a wonderful and safe holiday season everyone and I will talk to you again real soon,

Clayra Beau

105 comments:

  1. Wow. That is just awful. I don't care what clause they have in the contract. That is criminal.

    I'm glad that you are back home with your family, and I hope that you have a wonderful and safe holiday season too.

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  2. I am embarrassed about what that company's talent did to you and to the director for allowing it to happen. Where I come from (Michigan) that is called rape! I don't care if you do like some pretty rough things, what you described (and telling them that you had enough and them continuing) is called rape. You need to call the New Jersey State Police and file a report -- it is all on tape, for crying out loud! Most prosecutors wish for a case like this (other than the model agreement, which would probably be thrown out of court) for their whole careers.

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  3. @Matthew I think the the unattended consequence will be that they ban *all* porn. I know in the UK they were supposed to be banning femdom and BDSM sites for their over the top abuse. In one example that was sited was a male performer who's testicles were kicked so hard/much that they were 3x the normal size and bruised.

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  4. Its shocking but unfortuantly a dark side of the business.

    If the demand is there peopel will film this shit- the same goes for girls willing to do it. why you didnt walk after the first break I dont know my dear! Especially for $200!

    bless u! hope you feel better! :-)

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  5. Hey, Clayra- it's that talkative kid from myspace again.

    I think the abusive men in question should be castrated for the sake of society. I wonder if they are related to those in England and here also who gang stalk people on behalf of the extreme right (politics). America also has some of the toughest laws regarding illicit drug use, and yet they also allowed the eight seasons of That 70's Show to promote it like a sort of ideal almost. And also hip-hop with the criminal outlooks alluded to so often without any sort of true censorship on behalf of the affected youth. It's like entrapment, the victimization that ensues due to the polarizing factors in question should lead to us all taking the big media to task, suing them for ruining the lives of so many, leading so many into danger with the mixed messages. America definitely needs more laws to stay centrist and to promote it in peoples' personal philosophies as well, enough with the surrealist existential abuse of humanity in working class societies. Scary freaking world. Mamma mia.

    Hang in there eh? Don't become a basket case like I did (I had a run-in with some John Birch Society-type freaks at a workplace in '97 and I've been at odds with people since).

    You must have played heavy contact sports to be able to put up with the notion of participating in that crud to begin with. I'm guessing co-ed football or rugby...

    Those guys must be right-wing satanists, I'm serious. Raised that way or something. Dangerous shit. Temple of Set or something. Yikes. The ex-leader of that cult (based in S.F.) is still affiliated with the U.S. military and C.I.A. as well. He's a sick f*ck, he is. That big baby should've been castrated a loong time ago.

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  8. I hope you actually read what I just wrote, because after writing that I'm now worried about you even more. Maybe the reason you didn't know beforehand about the torture scene they proceeded to put you through is because they saved it for you only, who knows. Now it's your call, but be careful, Christ. I know what it feels like to be helpless. The guy who tried to mess up my head at work is now a law graduate working in the field locally. He played horrible head games and talked like Linda Blair's Exorcist character at times which freaked me out so bad because I was a born-again and the other staff all bahaved like he was perfectly normal, incl. one waitress who said she was the daughter of a man who later became police chief for a time. I think they made me an innocent target... it felt like being trapped in Hell. And nobody I know incl. family cares to hear my story either. It's totally bizarre.
    200 bucks! Good grief!

    I made 7 bucks an hour there for 5-6 months hanging around an aggressive demonic type who worked with large knives (I honestly thought God was punishing me- my gf of 2 yrs. had previously walked out on me for calling her a sinner, what did I know- I didn't attend church, just decided once to read the entire Christian Bible, no less).

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  10. Um, sorry. The reference to "John Birch Society" doesn't seem apt to me (too tame?). Maybe late-90's fascists from out of nowhere is more accurate. Conservatives who pretended to be hipsters but they were actually meanies and I think they wanted to drive me insane for some reason, (along with other people I met afterwards, incl. at a trade school). I think someone gave them bad information about me maybe, because later on one harrassing student at school also kept asking me in classes if I was actually a Communist- I didn't even know how to define the term at the time but he kept persisting with that query.

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  11. @straightshot..so let me get this straight(pun intended) you think they should be 'castrated' just because you don't like their *legal* site? Yes it is unfortunate what she went through but if you are going to have that attitude you should feel that women from femdom videos should also be sexually mutilated. They have girls that do the site multiple times and talk about how they enjoy it. It's not for everyone. StraightShot..in alot of ways you are no better than the Islamist fundamentalist who want to kill Americans simply because they don't like our society and customs..

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  12. Geez, I sure hope your comment gets deleted. What's your i.q. there, fellow human? You ever heard of irony?

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  13. I was speaking figuratively you dumbass. Is english not your native language or what?

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  15. This is Jimmy Kimmel, you f*cking sad excuse for a human turd.

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  16. Some quick info about how the possible interfering ambient noises can control a person's thought process


    I think as a person is going through the motions, when they suddenly open a door or shift in a seat, anything that makes noise, there can be somewhat pernicious hidden messages somehow interleaved in the auditory data that is then heard. It might occur at the right volume level and then cause a person's ideas to change according to what notion the sounds were disguised as. It depends how a person registers verbal information on a semi-conscious level however- ie. under the radar, distant voice.

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  17. By the way Clayra, nice site. I like the ads.

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  18. Listen, if I sounded particularily nasty, it's because it because of all the bullsh*t I myself have already been through from some local right-wing extremist nerds or whatever. They were operating for over a decade out of the provincial university no less. They're still messing with me too (not to mention all the other poor folks they've done in). So don't call me an extremist. And look what they did to poor Clayra. You miserable excuse for a human... You should be ashamed of yourself for missing my point of view. You're dismissed-

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  19. We're gonna get these guys, and we're going to get them good this time. No more black magic f*cks controlling the human scene from now on. And that's an order.

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  20. A first cousin of mine works for the national security of my country.

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  22. Was I arguing with a bot back there? The speech sounded sort of hackneyed. What an act. I sure wish women and men got along better.

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  23. Clayra, you didn't use this name there, did you? It'd be better if you didn't. Anyway, they'll probably try and release it. That's funny. Where was your boyfriend anyways? You must be with the feds. I worry about you sometimes. What a crazy nightmare to have. I can't imagine doing that to a woman. Not in the actual sense. No sir. Damn satanists! (spits). I don't even think they're earthlings, for the record. I can't stand this freakin' joint. Like shotguns are in order. Sorry, I've been reading comic books. Stupid boneheads. Crooks, woman haters. Those are the terrorists, can't that stupid bot see? I can't stand satanists! They're so unreasonable and low. Who ever designs any twisted arguments and viewpoints. Aside from misunderstandings, I mean. People who use it as a tool to get angry. I think they do...it's a way of sassing somebody in a hidden manner. Get off scott free as it were. See, he/she's gone, bye bye. A regular Carol Burnett.

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  24. We should burn those rape-artists literally.

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  25. C'mon, come at me then

    My latest Essay:


    I'm trying to be honest here


    I don't understand the way some conservative Americans tend to go on about "Hanoi Jane". You know, an intellectual female like that is rarely produced these days, and she's also Henry Fonda's daughter, a man respected starring in historical films of great quality and he also played Abraham Lincoln- I think his portrayal was a definitive one for many. I'm worried now that the ones with the most-biting remarks towards her are somewhat nuts, in that they are effectively trying to turn the tide against people like her (open-mindedness towards humanity vs. corrupted nationalist sentiment) by showing such rage towards her that others avoid getting to understand her work and thoughts. And the worst part is that many of these so-called extremists are educated-enough to know better but they somehow have become supporters of a police state mentality by falling in with a close-minded view of things like Vietnam's war was winnable at all costs, rather than a big waste of human life and resources, other than perhaps showing the Soviet leaders in Moscow that the U.S. armies were quite a force to be reckoned with on the military front. Hardly logic to suit those who's sons were losing their lives then. There sure is enough loudmouths like these to go around though, and even now that a Democrat president is again their federal leader. Just because there are angry people in positions of power, why should there be so many screwballs trying to distance the working classes from common sense? Grow up already, show some empathy for your poorer brethren! When people grant themselves a new view of reality that seems to fit, it may be delusional, and at its worst it could cause some serious tragedies. People with lots of money who trade advanced weaponry for kicks, is an example. I'm pretty bad too. I sit at home unemployed and feel like I'm wasting away. What a boring, useless time I've spent here thus far. My childhood friends are in their mid-thirties. I'm still trying to remember fragments of our youth. I swear it, I am irrational when it comes to making a living in the real world (people often change their general looks each decade to suit the perceived norm for one), but I feel more secure watching the process occur in others rather than myself these days (though not in a gloating manner). I wouldn't recommend it though, drifting away from society. My parents' cat is now my best friend, most people have moved away, the ones I used to take for granted. Nobody really ever calls for me, and I worry that maybe it's going to continue that way for some time. It doesn't feel right to grow old and have little to show for it. Yes, being human, not so much of a gas this time around. However, driving around the city and being part of crowds still makes living seem more fun.

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  26. Christ, feel free to delete, I'm just trying to share some gleaned opinions with you. I suppose if your hubby's a nerd too, that could explain why he wasn't around to protect you from those ghouls. it's too bad some women are so damned assertive. Let's go for progress this time shall we? Like Jenny Holtzer, Jane Jacobs, B. Fuller, F L Wright and sons. I'm sorry, it's not my forté to describe the masters of progressive and effective organizing in human spaces. It's not economic either, but still, the powers that be didn't have to throw us all to the dogs in so many ways. Where's Dickens?

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  27. Wow StraightShot, Didnt think my reply would upset you so..people tend to get mad when they know they are wrong. :-P Funny that the advertisement shows a woman kicking a man in the nads..should she be castrated Osama bin StriaghtShot?

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  28. Okay there Mr. Pimpo. I can tell when someone's getting defensive. If your were her real agent you'd try and get her some half-decent work!

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  29. I don't like how you keep targeting women in your unintellectual-sounding retorts. I'm a humanist actually. I personally don't condone violence towards other humans but this was a special exception I feel. No offence but your nick makes you sound like a fairy.

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  30. I have never understood any type of violence real or not in sex, it's revolting & an immediate turn off for me.

    I have never heard of either of the sites you mention & have no intention of ever visiting either one.

    I hope you are very careful in the future & don't put yourself at risk doing these types of videos. As a beautiful model I would hope that you can find work in more mainstream venues. 2000 is not enough for the abuse you took I'm guessing.

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  31. When is Facial Abuse video coming out? it's not on site

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  32. Anon3eveWE4a said:

    "When is facial abuse video coming out? it's not on site"

    Me:
    You are too stupid to look at porn.
    I'm serious. All this "ironic" smut only makes horny guys more insensitive, more apt to look at alluring females as sex objects. The truth hurts.

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  33. So you don't know when? Who to ask? I want to see it.

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  34. Haha they fucked you up for just 200 lousy Dollars!!!
    That is what I called owned ;)
    How does it felt to get used just as a piece of meat by guys for their pleasure and they don't give a shit about your feelings?
    Does it hurt?!!? Ohh that’s your fault for being a porn whore- so shut the fuck up and don’t do it again ;)

    Btw most guys don't watch FA for the fucking part, but for the part when they finally destroy the girls physically and emotionally ;)
    I nearly pissed myself reading your bitching whore story.

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    1. ...and that's both the cause and the consequence of no actual flesh and blood woman ever wanting to even consider touching your tiny thingy.
      Perfect example of the guys go get off to this kind of stuff...

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  35. I think Martin is a gay woman-hater. Sorry you got laid off pal. Sociopathic scum. You sound like a right wing asshole who hangs around turds.

    "I nearly pissed myself reading your bithcing whore story".

    "So shut the fuck up and don't do it again".

    How many kids you got there Martin? Psycho. You assume to much about what the woman feels and her intentions here. I do feel though that over the top pornography is connected to social stratification, or anti-revisionist "bourgeois" conservatism. They sort of feed off each other, and it shows that we have poor governments, people! I ain't wishing for this crap, I want a girlfriend, I want to live life to its fullest. The porn industry can go to hell, I'm sick of watching this meat market crap. It's always political anyways when the Illuminati or whoever is also pulling strings in general to help proliferate sexuality and whatnot.

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  36. Sorry. I just wanted to add that effectively it's possible that proliferation of sex media (especially the extreme stuff) is preventing societies from progressing, especially those in the West that are not as liberal overall in sex mores as those in Europe and Asia. Participating in, and also helping support such activities would make one a social backslider in layman's terms. Enabling corrupt, right wing dumbasses to keep us in the dark ages that much longer, capiche? Or perhaps I just can't grasp the irony inherent in such erotic productions today, but how many of us actually do most of the time? Especially when you hear these types of stories such as Clayra's here? I think she just occasionally gets turned on from starring in such extreme stuff (not including the abuse she actualy suffered here). But look at the questionable film or two Meg Ryan chose to star in a few years back. It kinda disgusted a lot of people, ruined her image somewhat, but that's what she wanted to do I suppose.

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  37. Watching scary sex scenes tends to make me feel emasculated somewhat. I consider that problematic. Picking on woman is so low and despicable, it's stone age. I wish woman-haters would all just dematerialize, do the world a huge favour...

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  38. In lieu of a more-Utopian Age, we present instead: Brutal Face Sex and Woman Abuse!

    Yaaaayy Satan!

    That doesn't sound like proper-Earth logic, does it?

    So basically, it's the art school types and woman haters against the rest of the planet. But indoctrinating only gets so far. We all carried a Christian-type outlook at some point.

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  41. Hating women is childish. The trouble for these perps is that they are old enough to work for a sex website, so they are older enough to be tried for rape. She was paid $200 to film a rough sex scene and they think they had some sort of disclaimer to allow them to forcefully assault her in a sexual manner agianst her will. If that video does get shown on the website, I think that might mean they think they have a strong case in their favor (or else they're asking for it, which they probably are at this point). How many other ladies had the same problem?(the website has seen the likes of a lot of female models by the looks of things) They need a strong union, like 10 years ago. This is the post-2nd wave feminist age for pete's sake. I guess it didn't last long enough, or this heavy porn is considered chic (ie. by female haters and perverts and existentialist primates). The stone age/space age runoff...


    I hope you're not fabricating this somewhat Clayra. Then you're asking for a bunch of spiteful email from their supporters who think you're trying to put them out of business (good riddance, but whatever).


    Who's their parent company? Is it connected with Greg Entner from BangBros?

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  42. Shame on you, Greg. I suppose he doesn't care if Jewish-American girls get beat up too, that no-good meshuggeneh. If you ask me, he acts worse than Judas.

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  43. Judas betrayed Jesus because he wanted a rebellion against the Romans and Hebrew pigs running Jerusalem. At least he had a cause. What's Entner's cause?

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  44. I mean, degrading women in such a manner for video entertainment, this stuff is unprecedented. And I think the sex industry in the U.S. may have such a powerful lobbying voice that this continued symbolic abuse of the woman is not going to cease because of extreme acts such as this, though well it should. I hope the U.S. and all their hypocritical religious fervor like when the Republicans are in office will get off their haunches and do more with the legal system, the constitution is important to uphold to preserve law and order in any first world country. This isn't Afghanistan you women-haters. If you ask me, sterilization would be a start. Shame them, punish them.


    Happy New Year, fellow Christians!

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  45. P.S. any fire and brimstone in Clayra's direction here is coming from the right. Wealthy, ignorant f*ckfaces.

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  46. I TAKE THAT LAST COMMENT BACK ! ! ! Most people I've actually ever met at workplaces also seemed to be apolitical, they don't even think in those terms. I can't believe I say stupid things like that. Most people out there are underpaid, over-worked, and both angry and ignorant and helpless. We fret and we vent and sometimes there's a communication breakdown. I fancy myself a bit like Linus from Charlie Brown at times, but this is just terrible of me. I'm sorry if I offended anybody. But seriously, why do guys freak out on women and stuff? Females might be ignorant at times and say or do rude things, but most of them still have the motherly aspect in their psyche, it's instinctual in all species. I'd never want to be castrated myself, I seriously fear guys who kill women and stuff. Like that Ted Bundy, what the f*ck? If he was known to be guilty, why did people pay for him to be in jail all those years? I guess he was nuts, huh? Some consolation. The 1970's also had the Son of Sam, the Zodiac Killer, Jonestown, freaking Jaws, really graphic stuff. And to think that satanist fascists sometimes glorify killing for politics, makes me wish I was dead.

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  47. So out of touch and so powerful and pervasive. The Nazi doctrine made Germans turn against Christianity and become killing machines and I heard it was a fairly smooth transition. The must have been some post grads calling the shots there too, no doubt. Hitler was a dummy but the people who put him in power weren't. Sometimes I think that's all made up though, you know? Napoleon's armies, please. Hiroshima, c'mon. Actual dads would go out and do this? It's Big Brother fear propaganda, huh? Let's go murder people for some stupid fascist pigs, c'mon people! Forget that Jesus guy, humanity, sanity, maturity, whatever. Forget perspective. Must have been some bad parents in these places too. Or maybe the water was spiked with wormwood or something. I heard Hitler was suppressing hmosexuality, and thus his machismo was something of a put-on, and maybe it turned him into a people hater (along with all his friends in the German cabinet not the armies). All that satanic imagery during their reign, how can that be a turn on for anyone? And why did they all get down on the Jewish-Germans? We should've dropped the bomb on Germany not Japan, it's like they were all infected with insanity. Enough of the stupid white power crap. Find out what happened to their heads over there (assuming it all happened as we've learned in North America). This place could be crawling with white power extreme fascists waiting to do it again, or worse with Thule Society witchcraft, and what have we all done about it since the end of WWII? Outside of Mossad, who really cares about that particular brand of evil? The English should, they're a superpower and they got bombed a lot.

    Clayra's a cute female model and God only knows what compels people to hurt girls like that. It's so base, the guys at the website should have the most caution in their acts seeing as how they're actually trying to exhibit a torture-like sex scenario (real torture's illegal, dummies!). Are these guys Nazi's, or what? Some audacity they have. Clayra needs a tough manager you know. A girl as cute as her, this is too much. She looks like she's from the Sears catalog after all- in the mom section. Never enable possible sociopathic behavior, that should be obvious.

    Police brutality comes from their repeated encounters with beligerent violent offenders, and to me raping a woman for $200 doesn't sound civilized at all. And to wonder if they were actually debating airing her rape on their website anyhow, I think that deserves a kick in the groin to say the least (I didn't see anything officer). But violence begets violence too, so I guess the taser comes in handy. Shocking.

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  48. Seriously, WWII Germany was like Resident Evil... I think Clayra's delving into the harder side of nude modelling and the like may be her form of protest for the times, sort of a punk rock ethos. I knew a girl who reminds me of her in my city and she used to listen to police scanners for fun, and discuss it with people. It depends when you're born as to how tough a person you are, at least according to ancient Sumerian astrology (and its derivatives), civilization's first religion. They actually got sacked by outsiders (Babylonians and the Assyrians?), they weren't a malevolent kingdom (but the first). Even Judaism later derived some Biblical themes from earlier Sumerian ones. That's the way it goes I guess.

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  50. Not to detract from the plight of poor Clayra Beau at the hands of these menaces (I'm thirty-four already going crisis here myself of sorts and thinking about moving from the Arctic to Los Angeles or something before I look like an old man permanent-like) Clayra's suffering is like Jesus's in essence, and thus also that of Woman in general at the hands of Draconian males and societies since the Sumerian age. The effects of tragedy in many forms, it really kills some people.

    um- the only other important thing is, there's a website like this (http://famous-relationships.topsynergy.com/) it tells enough about famous people seemingly based only on "astrological data" and yet sounds uncannily similar to any given hollywood star's actual apparent implied tendencies that it's possible that the computer and its raw data tells more about them than a professional even can. And that's from this Zodiac-type stuff from the ancient world. Irrelevant? Under these circumstance yes. But in general it seems quite relevant to me, or at least to someone(s) out there. Too much untruth, utopia is always fleeting. And what's this...are these numbers being used to target people? Sometimes it's too perfect how a person gets the runaround in life. Numerology? This is a bad forum. I'm not into magic, but harmony, aesthetic and philosophical balance. God help me.

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  52. Clayra, you look like a garden goddess, stop getting your ass raped!

    This bit with S & M and implied rape, it's aesthetic balance to draconians. And camp culture humiliating people after the fact, unimplied irony ruining artistic merit in certain visual media from the past. The fashion industry is retarded it seems. Someone get on that. Forget Johnny Rotten and Vivenne Westwood. They've snorted coke non-stop since 1978 and who's curious as to what the fashionistas in Paris and Rome are doing? There's too much southern Italian vibes going around as well. Since when did we trust them? Crazy-looking hoods. Their cousins are hopefully not the Memphis Group, perveyors of fashion filth since 1983. Odd blocky, bright colours, to the exclusion of anything artistic to an experienced eye. It's drab and distracting. Go tell it on the mountain? No, they didn't. Poor Germany, Berlin even. Nobody cares. Bauhaus hit the dust before some queer little post punk goth band from England took that name for their own. Common sense denial. Stop dressing like zombies and actually motivate people to keep thinking in a progressive manner. Round and round they go, where's the humanity, nobody knows. How hard is it to be a role model when you have a lot of money and fame? The worst people shouldn't be put in those positions, but I bet most of us could do it. It's a talent show after all. What, they go there just to get rich and act like snobs? As if. I'm deluded.


    Clayra, you look like a garden goddess, stop getting your ass raped!

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  53. And why is that in Hollywood industry shady types are the ones giving women black eyes and what not, but in the sex industry it allows such raunchy behavior as a matter of course (and even the chance of them primitive bastards putting a rape video up as well out of ignorance. Imagine!). Some sort of stigma. But if the actresses weren't so damn raunchy in the first place, people would respect them more in the mainstream entertainment areas. I mean who wants to reminded of such things looking at well-dressed actresses at the academy awards? It's a Christian overtone that's being violated there because a lot of the American t.v. stars have been in films carrying lofty tones that your mom watches. That culture clash is worse than awkward, it's just sad. The parliament in Italy of Berlessconi's with Cicciolina and whatever the heck else passes for progressive tones or whatever- it's odder than that (however maybe that's a symbolic compromise of sorts on their part- still it seems regressive though). Where's Marx? help! An opiate for the masses is asking too much of saintly-looking women, and people who know them. Violation of the code of standards (that's what someone might say in England). Hindus have been having crazy sex before the time of Jesus, and they don't go showing off about it. People don't shack up enough here. Traditionalism be damned, too much anonymity. ...Computer Love...

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  54. @Hating-Woman-Wrong Look at banner at bottom of page. Women kicking me in balls. Thats man hating. Is that ok? Why is it alright for women to degrade and abuse men but not the other way around? Must be alot of women haters because facialabuse and sites like it are doing very well. Also look at Japanese porn, they treat women even worse than those sites. I think sites are popular because todays society is feminzing men and all the politically correct stuff. Look how uptight Japanese life is, they make rape video games.

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  59. Anon8XYrEdYj:

    I personally don't think it's alright either for women to abuse men either. They do that in an erotic nature at least to level the playing field, but I too feel offended by parts of it.

    Japanese media is largely said to be controlled by gangster criminals for the record. This is at least partially due to the Yakuza having large control over some of the biggest trading organizations there, from what I've read in the past (source: Japan as No. 1). It's not really Japanese culture anymore, so much as a kind of crime-influenced fascism. The Japanese culture actually is a maternal-based one, believe it or not.

    Clayra, for the love of God, try not to get permanently f*cked up just for the sake of your modelling career.

    (sorry about the deleted entries- I had to keep rephrasing this post due to poor editing).

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  60. Ed_Mark:

    Even if gangs are running it in Japan they would only make it if people were buying it. I admit i like facial-abuse because of what they do. I would never do that in real life but i look at it like living out a fantasy without actually doing it almost like a holodeck. i would argue that people who like Call of Duty and other military games are desensitize into think invading countries and murdering civilians are a bigger problem then misogynistic porn. Even the Army has it's own First Person Shooter Game so they can recruit murderers...i mean soldiers.

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  61. I'm more religious than you, pal. All that stuff sickens me. Shame on you, sinner! Clayra Beau here, she reminded me of my first ex's mother, so I stuck up for her. You're a pimp, and if you don't leave the premises immediately, I shall strike you!

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  62. The problem inherent in pornography or any degenerate device used on poor people, is that the more people use it, the worse life becomes for our children who have to grow up around us ingrates (speak for yourself?). We have too-puritan a culture in North America for all these funny contrasts, I'm from Canada and it's the same here, just a different angle. Protestants aren't known to be promiscious by nature. Neither Lucy the Lutheran here. I can't stand atheists who have bad morals because it goes against my religion. I'm compelled to talk like a preacher at least some of the time, you see. Atheists can be so smug-sounding, and it sounds robotic to me when they can't fathom metaphysics. They sound like shameless clones.

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  65. From the Anon0PUWYZaQ entity - or whatever:

    "...i admit i like facial-abuse because of what they do. I would never do that in real life but i look at it like living out a fantasy without actually doing it almost like a holodeck."







    -(Why do you praise the sick stuff against females, and then turn around and say that you can't stand seeing a male getting kicked in the you know what? )

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  66. Ed Mark:
    I forgot to add. I have been on femdom/feminist forums mainly to see if hypocrisy exist and it does. On those forums women talked about how they like to hurt men balls, one said she had a castration fantasy..my point is it exist on both sides but for some reason men are vilified for porn like facial-abuse but not women who like to hurt men. Spikey Step and ClumDom are good examples of very hard femdom porn. The stuff they do a man could never get away with doing to a woman in a porno

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  67. Check out this band names' title: Ruemogue - Executed Blonde. Some fantasy.

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  68. Woman is the Nigger of the World, that's the problem.

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  69. Only closeted fascists would pay each other to beat people up. That's what I think. Bunch of degenerate goons. A bunch of spirited demonic types.

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  70. Which is why I wear a cross around my neck...

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  72. One more reason this type of smut should be banned is because it negatively affects the morale of the majority-who are God-fearing in many cases- and thus deluded and put-off more than some by such debacles. I experienced this sort of thing personally in 1997, having undergone a religious conversion, and it was horrible, witnessing all the wanton greed and destruction at large. I recovered eventually but it took some years. Now, is that good for public consciousness, to have to go through all that? Plus all the menacing archetypes in peoples' character. In a case of mistaken identity, some jerks tried to drive me crazy then as well in a work setting (gang stalking a Christian?). SO whatever, I can argue all the time, I have no life, it doesn't bother me. And my skin turned freaking yellow in my twenties. I'm actualy part Balkan, but this sort of crept up on me, and now I'm not who I thought I was or something. But only in certain light...You all over there, keep away from that girl.... What will I do? I'll shoot you with this pistol of mine, how's that? Pretty nice, huh? (smiles).

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  73. Ed Mark: Women aren't the niggers of the world, far from it. They have more rights then men. They can cry rape at the drop of hat, they themselves can rape school boys and when it comes to crime they get lesser sentences and punishment. As for the fascist comment what do you think this country is. It liks dominating and hurting countries that don't listen to it.

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  74. Are you arguing with me here or just trying to let off steam? It's probably not your fault. You're an angry victim of mean feelings toward some female(s) who deserted you in some way. I think it's fairly obvious. So now you take out your frustrations by watching them get beat up in a sexual manner. Bravo.

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  75. @Ed_Mark the only thing that should be banned is religion. I tire of women being put on pedestals. They want equality but don't want to be treated equally. Women get *all* kind of benefits that men don't get yet they scream equality. Sites like Facial Abuse is a balance to the force. They put women back in their proper places. I enjoy watching them destroy them.

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  76. Listen to yourself... you're sounding like an abusive sociopath, you damn creep. Shame on you, pig. Learn some manners before you go writing nasty words on adult websites.

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  77. For real. Look at what you're writing, and under what context.

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  78. Hey listen. Seriously. What kind of a man are you to say such things? Didn't you ever read superhero comics as a young man? Where's your sense of human decency? This woman got raped. This is supposed to just be adult entertainment. I wasn't even condemning you for watching this kind of smut, however your rant against women is totally inappropriate and offensive to almost everyone here. Don't you realize that simple fact? Were you rai sed in an all-male orhpanage? Just why did you chose to tell all of us here about how much you like watching females get put "back in their proper places. I enjoy watching them destroy them." Are you masquerading as a Satanist, because it sure is starting to sound like it. Grow up, you cockroach, you. Jesus Christ!

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  79. Listen, Clayra. You have done some serious damage here yourself, but at least a person gets to kick a little heinie now and then. You are like true patriot anyway, you're making guy's eyes bugg out, but they totally love you for it. Just watch out that you don't get killed by Lithuanian stereotypes of some strange, seedy nature. Or something, much, more sinister...

    muhuhahahahahah

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  81. sorry- Listen,don't you all get started now. This is a potential environ of human intellect. Try to put the peepees and peepéts alone for a moment and think straight about your ideals.

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  82. Don't be all buffoonish like I just was, and that genuine certified creep before me.

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  83. Facial abuse make no excuses for what they create on set; you said yourself that you'd done your research and were supposedly informed before going in. It's raw uninhibited "entertainment" what made you think you were going to receive any sort of special treatment?

    FA isn't moral, but it is legal. If you don't like how you were treated, then why did you sign up for it in the first place? They certainly aren't deceiving people into thinking its a light hearted bit of fun.
    I'm assuming it's because of the money, of which they offer a lot (only if you're strong enough finish the shoot however).

    Toughen up, and maybe think about a switch to softcore.

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  84. I live on the other side of the earth practically and have reported FA material to the appropriate office @ Us Dept of Justice (about 6 months back, prior to coming across this site which was a few minutes ago). What have YOU or other hurt performers or informed professionals of the industry have done to stop this? Have you people organized a protest of written form, talked to the vets of the industry, consulted lawyers, sought to see what can be done on legal terms???

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  85. You can delete this post but... I'm very grateful FA for they job. These guys provide real cool video. GIrls like you were born for this purpose. FA is the BEST!

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  86. they usually pay a lot more than $200 had you completed the scene. I'm a fan of FA, but I feel your pain. Had you researched their material a bit more, you'd realize that this was no normal porn shoot. I'm sorry about the injuries to your eye. There is a surgery that can correct your eye muscle/brain coordination if you need it. The eye & ear infirmary in NY has a few physicians that can perform that.

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  87. @caviar suns they have been reported before..what they are doing is not illegal. You may not like the way the women are treated but they choose this..it's not like FA is new..they have been around almost a decade so it's no secret what they do. Also if you take a gander at the bottom of the screen it's women kicking men in the nads..why don't you protest that? Lastly, If you live on the other side of earth what are you doing trying to interfere with American lives and commerce?

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  88. I surely thought the girls got paid around $5000 to do that kind of nasty stuff, but $200? That's crazy. Hell, I'll pay you twice as much to hook up with you and fuck you gently. No photos or videos.

    Hollar if you want to visit me in new orleans. I have a huge house too. jonasclark14@yahoo.com

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  89. Facial Abuse is awesome because it's real, unlike 99% of all other porn. If you got hurt, I'm sorry. Some people might say it's your own fault for not doing your homework, but not me. I felt sorry for you. Then I got a big boner and shot a load watching you gag and puke. (I am a bad boy, huh?) Anyway, thanks for the orgasm, you sexy little nerd!

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    1. Fur sure some cats like to wank to that shit; good for you . Though i can't beat my meat to FA, what the fuck were you thinking. Clayra ? the name of the sit is facial ABUSE. watching two or three trailers tells you EVERYTHING you need to know about the stuff they shoot. Sorry you couldn't hack it and i hope you find some shit more in your wheelhouse, but its' ridiculous to view you as a 'victim' in this.

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  90. This is not professional legal advice, but I think anyone who has an experience like this should consult with a lawyer about a civil lawsuit. I don't know of any jurisdiction that would honor a contract clause like the one you describe in this article. Standup, fight back and get paid for your pain and suffering.

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  91. Wow. That is absolutely awful. Thank you very much for sharing your story, despite the idiots who are giving you shit for it. That's a very interesting thing about their contract there. How can that possibly be legal?

    http://teryolaw.blogspot.se/2013/04/someone-please-kill-creators-of.html

    I wrote that blog about FacialAbuse recently and it examines their underlying misogynist agenda. And the fact that they are selling blatant fucking rape as pornography. Read it, please, and share it.

    I don't understand why they are allowed to continue as a company. I really think that the established pornstars in the business need to get together and bring attention to this company and get them off the market. Someone has to do something.

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  92. You may not be able to sue them for physical or emotional distress, but you can surely sure report them for rape and/or assault; there can be no clause to prevent that.

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  93. Facial Abuse caters to the fetish of watching women reduced to tears on camera. The scene itself isn't the focus, that's just the vehicle to get where they're going.

    I wouldn't recommend anyone ever work with them.

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  94. The fact that there's even an audience for Facial Abuse significantly reduces my faith in humanity. Disgusting.

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